karma

Yours truly....

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.....ok... i admit... it has been a thousand years since i blogged....too lazy...too occupied i guess...hehehe. In between all these time i had a fantastic birthday slumber party...i worried over my application...workin....spending money. I realise how pple can actually get bored with their jobs...guess its the whole repeat same thing everything that kills pple. Have been quite a freak recently....catchin all the weird tv shows like desperate housewives...The o.c...and one tree hill.....but i must say i learn alot from them at the same time i get entertained by them. As the clock ticks day by day...we take a step backward as smthg and take a step forward as smthg else. Its part of living and growing. Yes, time, yours truly, will make you realise that you can do smthg that you once deemed impossible....it will unlock the many other doors you hav inside of you and show you the path tat just might let you see the light at the end of the tunnel. I for one hav been makin use of my late night for some craft work...It 1st started as a little experiment...den...it became smthg more....Do you like it?...Will you want to have it ?...Share with me what you think as no two watches do like alike. Remember to buzz me through my comments and leave your e-mail add. So let time perform its miracle....as miracles do happen. "Love is the great miracle cure. Loving ourselves workes miracles in our lives"- Louise L Hay.

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The link

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I ve just finished reading the five people you will met in heaven ( yes ..i noe..i'm a bit slow...better late than never yeah..haha) It makes me realize how small this world is and how interconnected we are as humans. The fact that one thing leads to another was never that clearly presented to me. As my eyes grace through each and everyword, the story unfolds. How everyone has its place one earth whether they might be playing a small or big role. How hatred is not a motivation for attack but the harm it does, it does only to ourselves. I feel enlightened somehow. Its a short book but i enjoyed it and had since aspired me to influence others the way the book has.
" Sometimes when you sacrifice something precious, you're not really losing it. You're just passing it on to someone else" Energy, time, love........it might seem sacrificed. But even when you deny it, it has, in fact benefited at least one individual. So when you feel tired and useless at the end of the day, dont depair cause you have made a difference.
I ve aways thought that the root of all problems is caused by family. " Youth, like pristine galss, absorbs the prints of its handlers. Some parents smudge, others crack, afew shatter childhood completely into jagged little piece, beyond repair" They always leave their marks on us. Only as we grow older we realise its power. But its too late.
So as we sit in our chair, we 're haunted by our past, living in the present and unaware of the future. But do remember to breathe and take comfort that there is still tomorrow to be a better person.

The three Cs....

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As i struggle with my university addmission, i'm brought back to a very important interaction between human being. Confusing? Well, i was enjoying Will Smith's latest movie Hitch.( Wonderful movie may i add...definitely recommandable...especially to the male species..) And it made me realise that relationships play an important part in life. Whether it's the clinche boy-girl romance..the father daughter relationship.., your simple hi-bye kind of friends..or juz friendships. Its everywhere. Every corner that you turn, every thought you make. It is inevitable that relationships are form...can you believe it, every second in this world, there is a relationship forged. "Life is not about the breathe you take. Its about the moments that take your breathe away"-Hitch.
I have, told this to a couple of my dear friends, came up with the three Cs for every successful relationship.

1) "C" hemistry- The catalyst. Its not found in the labs. Instead, its found in a look of an eye, a sound of a voice or even intuition. A form of attraction, uncontrollable, undeniable and unexplainable.

2) "C" ompromise- Its a very tricky word but it can not be underrated. It's a two way thing of give and take. Perhapes, its harder for some, perhapes it needs hardwork.Forgive? Forget?...maybe. Its a step that has to be taken imminently and carefully.

3) "C" ommunication- Even if you have to use hand signals. Do not forget to communicate. It promotes better understanding and prevents insecurities. Of course, you will have to be frank and clear. Whether it's talking or writting. Any form of communication is good communication. The thing is to get the message across.

So my friends, lets all hope that with any relationship we will remember theses "basic principles". As every human interaction should be cherished. Do not forget to entertain or get to know strangers along the way of your life. Cause by doing so you might have entertained or known angels.
*Ps: my fifth piece of design is sold today..hehe (:*

To be or not to be....

Many things happen in mysterious ways. But i guess it does happen for a reason. I was in Hk recently. It was a feast for my senses. I'm back in a place where i'm uncomfortably fitted in. All of a sudden, my incompetence in my second language started to creep into me as i filled up the endless forms for my new IC. Karma, i think..haha. Its strange. I've never really heard pretty and my name in the same sentence before so when pple started to, i felt weird. People around there are different. In a good and bad way i guess. Its funny how two places seperated by just 3 plus hours of flight can have such different defintions about different things. Then again, i embrace diversity. It makes the world go round espescially in such an integrated world we're in now. I guess i needed the break. Was getting abit over the top worrying about the As..haha.
Hong kong reminds me of japan, although i can't say the same for the toilets, just that i'm not a handicap there. Their kinky sense of style ,their service attitudes... mayb its the proximity or mayb its the weather. Speaking of weather, its was cool in HK, abt 13 degrees when i was there. While people were trying to escape from the cold weather, i was actually escaping the heat. Haha. This trip made me realise how small singapore is. A dot. Hk looks important some how. I'm not discriminating against s'pore ( mind you, i was born and raised here )... Its just, well, different. Perhapes its something in the air or perhapes the grass is greener on the other side. The skyline in hk is gorgeous. Its looks even better at night as the sky-scrappers lighted up the dark sky. The light shadow looked like diamonds dancing on the water, shimmering under the cool evening sky.
My results was out. I stood in a corner as my aunt phoned my mum. One by one the grades started to pop out her mouth. The thought of that moment sends chills down my spine....again..haha. I didnt do that well. I'm not happy nor am i disappointed. I'm happy for all my friends. They did good. I'm serious. I'm not puting myself short, its just the truth.haha.
Our lives are made up of magic little moments which arrive unexpectedly. And in these magic little moments, lies the very best of life. As my college life offically comes to an end, as enduring friendships continues, a new chapter in life unfolds. May magic be paper and reality be pen, as my life story begins to write a brand new chapter.
( Btw...another of my design was sold on the day i left..hehe)

Public Announcement Service...

What have you done?....What do you consider as done? Life is an everlasting book of riddles. Every page you turn are words to humour you and sentences that describes you. Cynical?Maybe. Skeptical? Yes. Perhapes its my insecure nature to be blamed. Or my inabilties? Our achievements,i believe, is measured by how much we put out....may it be in terms of sacrifice ...love...time or energy. So why are there so many doubts in me? Whatever outcome it might be, i should be content. I should believe. i should move on. I should....
Maybe all the shoulds are just a lame excuse for my shortcomings. Perhapes i deserve all that have happened. I embraced fate, for it has brought me joy. But at the same time it has brought the world's sorrow and grieve .People of mediocre ability sometimes achieve outstanding success because they don't know when to quit. Most men succeed because they are determined to.Perhapes i dont have that endurance and patience. Perhapes time will to its magic and spark a miracle for me... :) Lets all hope, pray and beg that whatever the future lies...its all been taken care of...and it shall bring self-worth and joy... :)..... May i begin with a new beginning but with the memory of the old journey.
btw....i will b away for abt a wk....so leave your messages here for me k....hehe...muacks

Des'tiny

Destiny n. fate; one's future destined by fate.
Fate n a power thought to control all events, a person's destiny.
These are the words taken from my oxford english dictionary. Destiny a tiny word that is so hard to comprehen. Even the dictionary seems abit ambiguous. Destiny is our mask. A pathetic excuse for all that we failed to achieve. Conveniently, we put the burden of fault and mistakes on what seems an uncontrollable force. Perhapes we ache for comfort and redemption in all we do, and once we are unable to convince ourselves we are self-worthy, we blame it on poor fate. Think abit closer and harder, and you will realise that fate is innocent.
Are will afraid of destiny? The confrontation with fate is not something anybody can endure. You need the courage. To be able to take control of it or rather face it. 'It is destiny' - phrase of the weak human heart! 'It is destiny' - dark apology for every error! The strong and virtuous admit no destiny."-E. R Bulwer-Lytton. Taking destiny into your own hands; do you dare?, In a world where most of us aren't even able to face it.
Sow an act...reap a habit; Sow a habit...reap a character; Sow a character...reap a destiny. Destiny is not a stranger. However, its the better of ourselves. Every action every thought,even the impetuous ones. result in destiny. Perhapes destiny is just our true self and all that what life have given us.
Embrace destiny and forgive fate for most if not all are your own doing. Destiny is god-sent, as are we. Don't blame it, face it wholeheartedly. Accept the things to which fate binds you, and love the people with whom fate brings you together, do so with all your heart. At such you will realise that fate or destiny could be your lifetime companion. :)

Wanted....want....wanting

As a little girl i wanted my mummy when i fell down. I wasnt ashamed of what i wanted. They were the most basic : love, security... This little girl grew older day by day and realized the world is not like in the story books which she loves so much. Things are much more confusing, nothing is black or whilte. In fact everything was in shades of grey. Therefore, as the lines between very definition begin to grow thinner, so did my wants. I wanted a fairy tale ending, i wanted attention, i wanted more...Now as think back on my wants, everythings seems so naive. I guess its just part of growing up. We change and become more realistic and practical, cynical, in fact. Our desires are limited by the barriers we bulid around ourselves.
I received a missed call today. The phone on the other line was picked up as i returned my call. The news came : My design was sold. I couldn't believe it. Its natural that i want my design to do well but this news was a little too quick for this 18 year old i guess. Wants are like wishes in a way. But they are more realistic, they can actually happen. Sometimes at the most unexpected moment. Do you want something? Do you want someone? Is that urge overwhelming? I believe our wants will become our desires and it will be this very force that keeps us motivated at the dawn of each new day.
Wanting...it may seem like a favour...its like a reality- in-waiting. The fact its "ing" means its an action....movement....The result of want = wanting. Wanting are what i like to put it : long term goals.Of course long is subjective. Everyone is wanting something. The difference is those who actually catch it and make it a reality, and those who just allow it to echo in their heads till they fade away.
Wanted...want...wanting...they are separated by time. What you wanted may not be what you want. Time changes everything. Did your wanted become a want and then a wanting?... i believe there are somethings that will....Like love... security...protection. The stuff that we wanted as kids might be what we want all our lives. Geoffrey F. Albert said :Prosperity depends more on wanting what you have than having what you want. Indeed want is a great motivation...give in to this craving temptation...of desire

The invitation

the invitation
It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. i want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing.
It doesn't interest me hw old you are. i want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dreams, for the adventure of being alive.
It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon. i want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life's betrayals or have become shriveled and closed frm fear of further pain. i want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it.i want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own, if you can dance with the wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, to be realistic, to remember the limitations of being human.
It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me is true. i want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself; if you can bear the accusation of betrayal and nt betray your own soul; if you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy.i want to know if you can see beauty, even when it's not pretty every day, and if you can source your own life frm its presence.i want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and still stand on the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, "yes!"
It doesn't interest me to know where you live or hw much money you have. i want to know if you cn gt up, aft the night of grief and despair, weary, bruised to the bone, and do what needs to be done to feed the children.
It doesn't interest me to know who you know or hw you came to be here. i want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back.
It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. i want to know what sustains you, frm the inside, when all else fails away.i want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.

This is adapted from fely.....i liked it....hope you do too. Its speaks for itself. All that we feel or might be feeling...the questions and the , perhapes, answers..

What conquers...??~

Sun tabloid proclaimed: "Love has conquered all." Prince Charles's announcement came just before St' Valentine's Day. In his fifties, he is about to embark on another journey of married life. This time, it seems right. for he is about to tie the knot with the woman he first set his eyes on about 30 years ago. Fate has a way of toying with us : i rest my case.
Is it a case of better late than never?. As i sit in my ikea bought chair typing. a sense of guilt hangs over me like a dark cloud. My good friend, sherilyn, is leaving for the Uk for a month on an exchange programme and i'm not at the airport to hug her good-bye. There are reasons though but the sense of guilt still lingers...There are some things that are now or never. Not everyone is so lucky to be given or oftered a second chance. As Napoleon said: " Ability is nothing without opportunity." The door has to be slighty open. The sad thing is sometimes they are locked. You have to search for the key to open them.
There comes the question : how hard must we work to get them? While to some it might seem to be an never-ending task, to others its as 1-2-3. Another question: Is it, therefore. fair? In the work place or even in the situation of relationships. We are also stuck with: want vs reality. Tisktisk...
Even John Constantine faces the same problem. Can love really conquer all? Even for us commoners? Do we get a second chance? Do things ever turn around and b the way we want them to be? And finally, do we have the luxury of time?

Prelude to a rooster-ing new year

The year of the mischievious monkey is ending in less than 10 hours. As we bid farewell to the year of the monkey it is only right to remember or rather forget all the monkey business that has happened. As the tradition goes : Spring cleaning...getting rid of the dirt and picking up the pieces. If this if so, my mind needs a major spring cleaning. O f course not all should be forgotten, there are memories i wont exchange for...: friends..family...laughter. Yet, there are some i wished had never happened. Within a year, my nerves were shattered...my heart was broken...my feelings were numb and my soul was lost. Although not all were unpleasant, the year of the monkey ended with a bitter-sour note.
The past forgotten, the present anticipated and the future unpredicted. Its the dawn of a new life-changing year for me and my friends. As the rooster makes itself heard in the early morn of the new year, lets all hope, pray and beg, that what is to come will be more comforting. They say time is a good healer perhaps they are right. Perhaps fate have a way of toying with us. Perhaps. as shakespeare said: life is a play..perhaps..perhaps... perhaps.

Obscurity.....

Reality vs believe.....
Which is more important?....As a person who treasures creativity...believe is as important as reality. But there are times when i have to embrace the fact that in this increasingly practical world reality is key. As the year of the rooster is ushered in with anticipated hope and hype lets hope that this believe will become a reality. The weekend following the Chinese New Year holidays will be St' Valentine's Day. Might i just add that singles rock...period....its will be a tough day for singles out there but remember that there are alot of privilege that we , as singles, enjoy. Since we might not be single for that long we might as well celebrate wholeheartedly...haha..where art thou my romeo...deny thy father and deny thy name..why are u so ambiguous..
I 've found the University i believe will be the best for me, with the perfect course. Parsons School of Design, New York, degree of design and management. I'm reluctantly struck with the reality that my atrocious results awaits me in a months time. Secondly, theres no way my parents will allow me to go...they will need to bleed through their noses to finance me...haha reality vs believe......
i miss school....waitwait..before you think i'm crazy..i have to say its the company of friends i miss...its the sound of the final school bell i miss....its the sound of my friends laughter and conversations i miss... its the food i miss...its the pple i miss seeing...its the warm air and the sometimes-freaking-cold air-con i miss feeling...Whats comforting is that i'm seeing a bunch of them soon....I believe that our friendships are as strong as diamonds...reality...maybe we are like the water in the ever flowing river...we all take our own paths but met up once in a while to form a lake or even the sea.....
We live in reality but believe is what keeps us alive.....

Gowns...roses.....yup..its wedding mania

..Its been a weird week...Just too many things associated with wedding. And they all have to come within a week....argh,,,Firstly.. my never ending dose of magazine readin bought me to these pages in INSTYLE...celebrities weddings...where fairytale weddings do seem to cum true..haha...they are beautiful ...gorgeous in fact. Then there was this wedding dinner i had to attend...a family friend. My uncle flew from HK juz to attend. Mostly People of the jewellery industry in Singapore...the wedding that became a jewellery exhibitioin...hahaha..it was ok...
Then was billionaire Donald Trump's wedding...who's bride by the way appeared on vogue this month with a Dior gown.....Gosh....its not even a week to valentine's and i'm already drowning in all these...haha..i came up with a list of Must-Have s for my wedding... that is ..if i have my way..haha

MUST HAVES
1) A wedding in the evening with the sunset...outdoor
2) A cocktail party afterwards...
3) Roses....lots of them..hehe
4) Candles....oo so romantic
5) Good food
6) Live band playing jazzy and romantic songs
7) A dance floor
8) Comfort chairs
9) Good lighting...haha
10) Fireworks...covet
Iwant my wedding to ignite all yr five senses : sight...taste...hearing...touch and smell...

HAHAHA....dream on babe i know.... owell a girl can dream right..haha...i think its important to indulge yrself once in a while....to let lose...you know to have the liberty to do whatever you want whenever you want without any hesitation or doubt. Of course there are things that we covet. But that does not mean if we dun work hard we wont get them. Its a matter of desire becoming reality.. to some its easier ..to others just a dream...So do remember to pamper yourself once in a while as no one can love you more than yrself ( except for God of course) . Leaving you with quote

" What you think you create
What you feel you attract
What you image you become "

Love ya loads...Muackx...*BigFatHug*

On the verge of crying...argh

Gosh...im irriatated, mad and sad all at the same time..... the draft i juz typed for my blog is all gone due to bad internet connection,...argh,,,,,
As i was saying... i never really appreciated my ezlink card...spend like10 bucks over the pass few days on transport alone.....gosh...
Work work Work,.....most pple are at it now i guess...get to c less of mum and more of dad...i used to juz c my dad for a few hrs due to our clashing schdules noe i work with him next to him.haha.. Its pretty fun i guess..learnin the world of retail and drawing and desigin,,,some of my designs are in production.....so exciting..
Miss all my frens 1/4 are workin 1/4 are quiting their jos 1/4 are in the army 1/4 are overseas.
Identities.,,,, i came to think about it..i, no more a student. Taitai to be ( my frens nicknamed me0...yup...i guess it can to humbling and at the same time insulting.... i dunno... Do they fail to c and comprehend the better side if me or do they juz chose to sting because its easier...Are they a true reflection of self?....Can someone see wats beyond yr skin?...i muz say i do hav frens who do...do you fall into that category?...hmhmhm
Chinese New Year is in a few wks time...the holz...the colours..the food...the pple..the money....Den comes Valentine's Day.... reality hit me when i bought the latest magazines( as i usually to) ...pink...hearts....chocolates...roses...all the lovey devy stuff...sigh..where art thou my romeo...hahahaha
May not be with u guys during the collection of results...depending on which day it comes out...but i guess i doesnt matter coz i havent been doing well the pass 2 years...yup
To everyone reading...wherever you are whatever u doing no matter you miss me or not..haha...hope to crash into you soon...haha...muacks