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Destiny n. fate; one's future destined by fate.
Fate n a power thought to control all events, a person's destiny.
These are the words taken from my oxford english dictionary. Destiny a tiny word that is so hard to comprehen. Even the dictionary seems abit ambiguous. Destiny is our mask. A pathetic excuse for all that we failed to achieve. Conveniently, we put the burden of fault and mistakes on what seems an uncontrollable force. Perhapes we ache for comfort and redemption in all we do, and once we are unable to convince ourselves we are self-worthy, we blame it on poor fate. Think abit closer and harder, and you will realise that fate is innocent.
Are will afraid of destiny? The confrontation with fate is not something anybody can endure. You need the courage. To be able to take control of it or rather face it. 'It is destiny' - phrase of the weak human heart! 'It is destiny' - dark apology for every error! The strong and virtuous admit no destiny."-E. R Bulwer-Lytton. Taking destiny into your own hands; do you dare?, In a world where most of us aren't even able to face it.
Sow an act...reap a habit; Sow a habit...reap a character; Sow a character...reap a destiny. Destiny is not a stranger. However, its the better of ourselves. Every action every thought,even the impetuous ones. result in destiny. Perhapes destiny is just our true self and all that what life have given us.
Embrace destiny and forgive fate for most if not all are your own doing. Destiny is god-sent, as are we. Don't blame it, face it wholeheartedly. Accept the things to which fate binds you, and love the people with whom fate brings you together, do so with all your heart. At such you will realise that fate or destiny could be your lifetime companion. :)
Friday, February 18, 2005
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
Wanted....want....wanting
As a little girl i wanted my mummy when i fell down. I wasnt ashamed of what i wanted. They were the most basic : love, security... This little girl grew older day by day and realized the world is not like in the story books which she loves so much. Things are much more confusing, nothing is black or whilte. In fact everything was in shades of grey. Therefore, as the lines between very definition begin to grow thinner, so did my wants. I wanted a fairy tale ending, i wanted attention, i wanted more...Now as think back on my wants, everythings seems so naive. I guess its just part of growing up. We change and become more realistic and practical, cynical, in fact. Our desires are limited by the barriers we bulid around ourselves.
I received a missed call today. The phone on the other line was picked up as i returned my call. The news came : My design was sold. I couldn't believe it. Its natural that i want my design to do well but this news was a little too quick for this 18 year old i guess. Wants are like wishes in a way. But they are more realistic, they can actually happen. Sometimes at the most unexpected moment. Do you want something? Do you want someone? Is that urge overwhelming? I believe our wants will become our desires and it will be this very force that keeps us motivated at the dawn of each new day.
Wanting...it may seem like a favour...its like a reality- in-waiting. The fact its "ing" means its an action....movement....The result of want = wanting. Wanting are what i like to put it : long term goals.Of course long is subjective. Everyone is wanting something. The difference is those who actually catch it and make it a reality, and those who just allow it to echo in their heads till they fade away.
Wanted...want...wanting...they are separated by time. What you wanted may not be what you want. Time changes everything. Did your wanted become a want and then a wanting?... i believe there are somethings that will....Like love... security...protection. The stuff that we wanted as kids might be what we want all our lives. Geoffrey F. Albert said :Prosperity depends more on wanting what you have than having what you want. Indeed want is a great motivation...give in to this craving temptation...of desire
I received a missed call today. The phone on the other line was picked up as i returned my call. The news came : My design was sold. I couldn't believe it. Its natural that i want my design to do well but this news was a little too quick for this 18 year old i guess. Wants are like wishes in a way. But they are more realistic, they can actually happen. Sometimes at the most unexpected moment. Do you want something? Do you want someone? Is that urge overwhelming? I believe our wants will become our desires and it will be this very force that keeps us motivated at the dawn of each new day.
Wanting...it may seem like a favour...its like a reality- in-waiting. The fact its "ing" means its an action....movement....The result of want = wanting. Wanting are what i like to put it : long term goals.Of course long is subjective. Everyone is wanting something. The difference is those who actually catch it and make it a reality, and those who just allow it to echo in their heads till they fade away.
Wanted...want...wanting...they are separated by time. What you wanted may not be what you want. Time changes everything. Did your wanted become a want and then a wanting?... i believe there are somethings that will....Like love... security...protection. The stuff that we wanted as kids might be what we want all our lives. Geoffrey F. Albert said :Prosperity depends more on wanting what you have than having what you want. Indeed want is a great motivation...give in to this craving temptation...of desire
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
The invitation
the invitation
It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. i want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing.
It doesn't interest me hw old you are. i want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dreams, for the adventure of being alive.
It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon. i want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life's betrayals or have become shriveled and closed frm fear of further pain. i want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it.i want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own, if you can dance with the wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, to be realistic, to remember the limitations of being human.
It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me is true. i want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself; if you can bear the accusation of betrayal and nt betray your own soul; if you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy.i want to know if you can see beauty, even when it's not pretty every day, and if you can source your own life frm its presence.i want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and still stand on the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, "yes!"
It doesn't interest me to know where you live or hw much money you have. i want to know if you cn gt up, aft the night of grief and despair, weary, bruised to the bone, and do what needs to be done to feed the children.
It doesn't interest me to know who you know or hw you came to be here. i want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back.
It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. i want to know what sustains you, frm the inside, when all else fails away.i want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.
This is adapted from fely.....i liked it....hope you do too. Its speaks for itself. All that we feel or might be feeling...the questions and the , perhapes, answers..
It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. i want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing.
It doesn't interest me hw old you are. i want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dreams, for the adventure of being alive.
It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon. i want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life's betrayals or have become shriveled and closed frm fear of further pain. i want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it.i want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own, if you can dance with the wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, to be realistic, to remember the limitations of being human.
It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me is true. i want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself; if you can bear the accusation of betrayal and nt betray your own soul; if you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy.i want to know if you can see beauty, even when it's not pretty every day, and if you can source your own life frm its presence.i want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and still stand on the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, "yes!"
It doesn't interest me to know where you live or hw much money you have. i want to know if you cn gt up, aft the night of grief and despair, weary, bruised to the bone, and do what needs to be done to feed the children.
It doesn't interest me to know who you know or hw you came to be here. i want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back.
It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. i want to know what sustains you, frm the inside, when all else fails away.i want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.
This is adapted from fely.....i liked it....hope you do too. Its speaks for itself. All that we feel or might be feeling...the questions and the , perhapes, answers..
Friday, February 11, 2005
What conquers...??~
Sun tabloid proclaimed: "Love has conquered all." Prince Charles's announcement came just before St' Valentine's Day. In his fifties, he is about to embark on another journey of married life. This time, it seems right. for he is about to tie the knot with the woman he first set his eyes on about 30 years ago. Fate has a way of toying with us : i rest my case.
Is it a case of better late than never?. As i sit in my ikea bought chair typing. a sense of guilt hangs over me like a dark cloud. My good friend, sherilyn, is leaving for the Uk for a month on an exchange programme and i'm not at the airport to hug her good-bye. There are reasons though but the sense of guilt still lingers...There are some things that are now or never. Not everyone is so lucky to be given or oftered a second chance. As Napoleon said: " Ability is nothing without opportunity." The door has to be slighty open. The sad thing is sometimes they are locked. You have to search for the key to open them.
There comes the question : how hard must we work to get them? While to some it might seem to be an never-ending task, to others its as 1-2-3. Another question: Is it, therefore. fair? In the work place or even in the situation of relationships. We are also stuck with: want vs reality. Tisktisk...
Even John Constantine faces the same problem. Can love really conquer all? Even for us commoners? Do we get a second chance? Do things ever turn around and b the way we want them to be? And finally, do we have the luxury of time?
Is it a case of better late than never?. As i sit in my ikea bought chair typing. a sense of guilt hangs over me like a dark cloud. My good friend, sherilyn, is leaving for the Uk for a month on an exchange programme and i'm not at the airport to hug her good-bye. There are reasons though but the sense of guilt still lingers...There are some things that are now or never. Not everyone is so lucky to be given or oftered a second chance. As Napoleon said: " Ability is nothing without opportunity." The door has to be slighty open. The sad thing is sometimes they are locked. You have to search for the key to open them.
There comes the question : how hard must we work to get them? While to some it might seem to be an never-ending task, to others its as 1-2-3. Another question: Is it, therefore. fair? In the work place or even in the situation of relationships. We are also stuck with: want vs reality. Tisktisk...
Even John Constantine faces the same problem. Can love really conquer all? Even for us commoners? Do we get a second chance? Do things ever turn around and b the way we want them to be? And finally, do we have the luxury of time?
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
Prelude to a rooster-ing new year
The year of the mischievious monkey is ending in less than 10 hours. As we bid farewell to the year of the monkey it is only right to remember or rather forget all the monkey business that has happened. As the tradition goes : Spring cleaning...getting rid of the dirt and picking up the pieces. If this if so, my mind needs a major spring cleaning. O f course not all should be forgotten, there are memories i wont exchange for...: friends..family...laughter. Yet, there are some i wished had never happened. Within a year, my nerves were shattered...my heart was broken...my feelings were numb and my soul was lost. Although not all were unpleasant, the year of the monkey ended with a bitter-sour note.
The past forgotten, the present anticipated and the future unpredicted. Its the dawn of a new life-changing year for me and my friends. As the rooster makes itself heard in the early morn of the new year, lets all hope, pray and beg, that what is to come will be more comforting. They say time is a good healer perhaps they are right. Perhaps fate have a way of toying with us. Perhaps. as shakespeare said: life is a play..perhaps..perhaps... perhaps.
The past forgotten, the present anticipated and the future unpredicted. Its the dawn of a new life-changing year for me and my friends. As the rooster makes itself heard in the early morn of the new year, lets all hope, pray and beg, that what is to come will be more comforting. They say time is a good healer perhaps they are right. Perhaps fate have a way of toying with us. Perhaps. as shakespeare said: life is a play..perhaps..perhaps... perhaps.
Thursday, February 03, 2005
Obscurity.....
Reality vs believe.....
Which is more important?....As a person who treasures creativity...believe is as important as reality. But there are times when i have to embrace the fact that in this increasingly practical world reality is key. As the year of the rooster is ushered in with anticipated hope and hype lets hope that this believe will become a reality. The weekend following the Chinese New Year holidays will be St' Valentine's Day. Might i just add that singles rock...period....its will be a tough day for singles out there but remember that there are alot of privilege that we , as singles, enjoy. Since we might not be single for that long we might as well celebrate wholeheartedly...haha..where art thou my romeo...deny thy father and deny thy name..why are u so ambiguous..
I 've found the University i believe will be the best for me, with the perfect course. Parsons School of Design, New York, degree of design and management. I'm reluctantly struck with the reality that my atrocious results awaits me in a months time. Secondly, theres no way my parents will allow me to go...they will need to bleed through their noses to finance me...haha reality vs believe......
i miss school....waitwait..before you think i'm crazy..i have to say its the company of friends i miss...its the sound of the final school bell i miss....its the sound of my friends laughter and conversations i miss... its the food i miss...its the pple i miss seeing...its the warm air and the sometimes-freaking-cold air-con i miss feeling...Whats comforting is that i'm seeing a bunch of them soon....I believe that our friendships are as strong as diamonds...reality...maybe we are like the water in the ever flowing river...we all take our own paths but met up once in a while to form a lake or even the sea.....
We live in reality but believe is what keeps us alive.....
Which is more important?....As a person who treasures creativity...believe is as important as reality. But there are times when i have to embrace the fact that in this increasingly practical world reality is key. As the year of the rooster is ushered in with anticipated hope and hype lets hope that this believe will become a reality. The weekend following the Chinese New Year holidays will be St' Valentine's Day. Might i just add that singles rock...period....its will be a tough day for singles out there but remember that there are alot of privilege that we , as singles, enjoy. Since we might not be single for that long we might as well celebrate wholeheartedly...haha..where art thou my romeo...deny thy father and deny thy name..why are u so ambiguous..
I 've found the University i believe will be the best for me, with the perfect course. Parsons School of Design, New York, degree of design and management. I'm reluctantly struck with the reality that my atrocious results awaits me in a months time. Secondly, theres no way my parents will allow me to go...they will need to bleed through their noses to finance me...haha reality vs believe......
i miss school....waitwait..before you think i'm crazy..i have to say its the company of friends i miss...its the sound of the final school bell i miss....its the sound of my friends laughter and conversations i miss... its the food i miss...its the pple i miss seeing...its the warm air and the sometimes-freaking-cold air-con i miss feeling...Whats comforting is that i'm seeing a bunch of them soon....I believe that our friendships are as strong as diamonds...reality...maybe we are like the water in the ever flowing river...we all take our own paths but met up once in a while to form a lake or even the sea.....
We live in reality but believe is what keeps us alive.....
Thursday, January 27, 2005
Gowns...roses.....yup..its wedding mania
..Its been a weird week...Just too many things associated with wedding. And they all have to come within a week....argh,,,Firstly.. my never ending dose of magazine readin bought me to these pages in INSTYLE...celebrities weddings...where fairytale weddings do seem to cum true..haha...they are beautiful ...gorgeous in fact. Then there was this wedding dinner i had to attend...a family friend. My uncle flew from HK juz to attend. Mostly People of the jewellery industry in Singapore...the wedding that became a jewellery exhibitioin...hahaha..it was ok...
Then was billionaire Donald Trump's wedding...who's bride by the way appeared on vogue this month with a Dior gown.....Gosh....its not even a week to valentine's and i'm already drowning in all these...haha..i came up with a list of Must-Have s for my wedding... that is ..if i have my way..haha
MUST HAVES
1) A wedding in the evening with the sunset...outdoor
2) A cocktail party afterwards...
3) Roses....lots of them..hehe
4) Candles....oo so romantic
5) Good food
6) Live band playing jazzy and romantic songs
7) A dance floor
8) Comfort chairs
9) Good lighting...haha
10) Fireworks...covet
Iwant my wedding to ignite all yr five senses : sight...taste...hearing...touch and smell...
HAHAHA....dream on babe i know.... owell a girl can dream right..haha...i think its important to indulge yrself once in a while....to let lose...you know to have the liberty to do whatever you want whenever you want without any hesitation or doubt. Of course there are things that we covet. But that does not mean if we dun work hard we wont get them. Its a matter of desire becoming reality.. to some its easier ..to others just a dream...So do remember to pamper yourself once in a while as no one can love you more than yrself ( except for God of course) . Leaving you with quote
" What you think you create
What you feel you attract
What you image you become "
Love ya loads...Muackx...*BigFatHug*
Then was billionaire Donald Trump's wedding...who's bride by the way appeared on vogue this month with a Dior gown.....Gosh....its not even a week to valentine's and i'm already drowning in all these...haha..i came up with a list of Must-Have s for my wedding... that is ..if i have my way..haha
MUST HAVES
1) A wedding in the evening with the sunset...outdoor
2) A cocktail party afterwards...
3) Roses....lots of them..hehe
4) Candles....oo so romantic
5) Good food
6) Live band playing jazzy and romantic songs
7) A dance floor
8) Comfort chairs
9) Good lighting...haha
10) Fireworks...covet
Iwant my wedding to ignite all yr five senses : sight...taste...hearing...touch and smell...
HAHAHA....dream on babe i know.... owell a girl can dream right..haha...i think its important to indulge yrself once in a while....to let lose...you know to have the liberty to do whatever you want whenever you want without any hesitation or doubt. Of course there are things that we covet. But that does not mean if we dun work hard we wont get them. Its a matter of desire becoming reality.. to some its easier ..to others just a dream...So do remember to pamper yourself once in a while as no one can love you more than yrself ( except for God of course) . Leaving you with quote
" What you think you create
What you feel you attract
What you image you become "
Love ya loads...Muackx...*BigFatHug*
Wednesday, January 19, 2005
On the verge of crying...argh
Gosh...im irriatated, mad and sad all at the same time..... the draft i juz typed for my blog is all gone due to bad internet connection,...argh,,,,,
As i was saying... i never really appreciated my ezlink card...spend like10 bucks over the pass few days on transport alone.....gosh...
Work work Work,.....most pple are at it now i guess...get to c less of mum and more of dad...i used to juz c my dad for a few hrs due to our clashing schdules noe i work with him next to him.haha.. Its pretty fun i guess..learnin the world of retail and drawing and desigin,,,some of my designs are in production.....so exciting..
Miss all my frens 1/4 are workin 1/4 are quiting their jos 1/4 are in the army 1/4 are overseas.
Identities.,,,, i came to think about it..i, no more a student. Taitai to be ( my frens nicknamed me0...yup...i guess it can to humbling and at the same time insulting.... i dunno... Do they fail to c and comprehend the better side if me or do they juz chose to sting because its easier...Are they a true reflection of self?....Can someone see wats beyond yr skin?...i muz say i do hav frens who do...do you fall into that category?...hmhmhm
Chinese New Year is in a few wks time...the holz...the colours..the food...the pple..the money....Den comes Valentine's Day.... reality hit me when i bought the latest magazines( as i usually to) ...pink...hearts....chocolates...roses...all the lovey devy stuff...sigh..where art thou my romeo...hahahaha
May not be with u guys during the collection of results...depending on which day it comes out...but i guess i doesnt matter coz i havent been doing well the pass 2 years...yup
To everyone reading...wherever you are whatever u doing no matter you miss me or not..haha...hope to crash into you soon...haha...muacks
As i was saying... i never really appreciated my ezlink card...spend like10 bucks over the pass few days on transport alone.....gosh...
Work work Work,.....most pple are at it now i guess...get to c less of mum and more of dad...i used to juz c my dad for a few hrs due to our clashing schdules noe i work with him next to him.haha.. Its pretty fun i guess..learnin the world of retail and drawing and desigin,,,some of my designs are in production.....so exciting..
Miss all my frens 1/4 are workin 1/4 are quiting their jos 1/4 are in the army 1/4 are overseas.
Identities.,,,, i came to think about it..i, no more a student. Taitai to be ( my frens nicknamed me0...yup...i guess it can to humbling and at the same time insulting.... i dunno... Do they fail to c and comprehend the better side if me or do they juz chose to sting because its easier...Are they a true reflection of self?....Can someone see wats beyond yr skin?...i muz say i do hav frens who do...do you fall into that category?...hmhmhm
Chinese New Year is in a few wks time...the holz...the colours..the food...the pple..the money....Den comes Valentine's Day.... reality hit me when i bought the latest magazines( as i usually to) ...pink...hearts....chocolates...roses...all the lovey devy stuff...sigh..where art thou my romeo...hahahaha
May not be with u guys during the collection of results...depending on which day it comes out...but i guess i doesnt matter coz i havent been doing well the pass 2 years...yup
To everyone reading...wherever you are whatever u doing no matter you miss me or not..haha...hope to crash into you soon...haha...muacks
Wednesday, December 29, 2004
What the world needs now is love sweet love...
It just send chills down my spine and my hair stands everytime i see or hear anything about the tsunami. Its so depressing. Why did such a thing happen..especially in a region that us just about to pick up itself and developing. I first heard if it in japan. Its the worst natual diseaster that even happen. Once again mother nature had demostrated its forces. Scary so scary. My japan pictures will be up soon..will b givin you guys the link soon.
So fragile...too fragile...thats what life is. Its 68000 lives and counting.
( taken from xinhe's blog)
I pray for peace
Blessings and honor
Heaven right earth's despair
This is my christmas prayer
For those that grieve
God will bring comfort
Laughter will rapture there
This is my christmas prayer
See i pray that love will rule and reign
And i pray that time will rid the pain of this world
As we learn to trust and care
This is my christmas prayer
So fragile...too fragile...thats what life is. Its 68000 lives and counting.
( taken from xinhe's blog)
I pray for peace
Blessings and honor
Heaven right earth's despair
This is my christmas prayer
For those that grieve
God will bring comfort
Laughter will rapture there
This is my christmas prayer
See i pray that love will rule and reign
And i pray that time will rid the pain of this world
As we learn to trust and care
This is my christmas prayer
Tuesday, December 21, 2004
For 25.12.2004.*.*.*.*.*.*.Luv Always: Me
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...Heyo...Merry X'mas..hehehe...have a great time yeah... you guys deserve after a year of hard work..dun forget my present k..hahah. Allow the memories of the past year to flash in front of you and take comfort that all these are just the beginning...The next year will be full of new inspirations and beautiful memories...the boulevard of dreams yeah..hehehe..(..yeah..for those who notice its a change fr the fab. green day song boulevard of broken dreams )...Muackx...Cya
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...Heyo...Merry X'mas..hehehe...have a great time yeah... you guys deserve after a year of hard work..dun forget my present k..hahah. Allow the memories of the past year to flash in front of you and take comfort that all these are just the beginning...The next year will be full of new inspirations and beautiful memories...the boulevard of dreams yeah..hehehe..(..yeah..for those who notice its a change fr the fab. green day song boulevard of broken dreams )...Muackx...Cya
Monday, December 20, 2004
TiMe 2 MaKe A LiSt...
I NEED:
1) A job...seriously...too many wants too little $...(scarcity)...hahaha
2) A Facial..my mum is breathing down my neck...she cant stand my face..haha
3) To learn driving..dun really hav the drive to learn but i think its a sooner or later thingy
4) My computer to work...have been using my counsins...
5) To pray/wish/hope harder for the A level results to be ok....insecurities..haiz
6) Lose weight..it was supposed to done like 1/2 years ago..but as you all noe..to no avail..haha
LONG..TERM...TO DO/MUST DO...
1) Go to Maldives...yupyup..the sun the sand the sea...ah...heaven
2) Visit France and Italy..two countries of such rich culture traditions food fashion architecture style and character......indulgence....
3) Get married..mymy...heheh..yeasyeas...laugh..dun really fancy being a spinster you know..hahaha
4) Open ophanage....just watched this show called adoption on hallmark 2dae..so touched..children r indeed the most innocent n none of them shd b deprived of love and the chance to develop to their fullest potential.....( of course..must have capital 1st lah....dreamdream...ahahha)
5) Spend the last few minutes of a year in New York city Time Square ...the atmosphere on tv is amazing..imagine the real thing....
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I dunno...wat are the chances of them happening anyways....ok folks..jus 5 days to christmas ...time to celebrate the past year and bring hope to the following one..hhehehe muackx..
1) A job...seriously...too many wants too little $...(scarcity)...hahaha
2) A Facial..my mum is breathing down my neck...she cant stand my face..haha
3) To learn driving..dun really hav the drive to learn but i think its a sooner or later thingy
4) My computer to work...have been using my counsins...
5) To pray/wish/hope harder for the A level results to be ok....insecurities..haiz
6) Lose weight..it was supposed to done like 1/2 years ago..but as you all noe..to no avail..haha
LONG..TERM...TO DO/MUST DO...
1) Go to Maldives...yupyup..the sun the sand the sea...ah...heaven
2) Visit France and Italy..two countries of such rich culture traditions food fashion architecture style and character......indulgence....
3) Get married..mymy...heheh..yeasyeas...laugh..dun really fancy being a spinster you know..hahaha
4) Open ophanage....just watched this show called adoption on hallmark 2dae..so touched..children r indeed the most innocent n none of them shd b deprived of love and the chance to develop to their fullest potential.....( of course..must have capital 1st lah....dreamdream...ahahha)
5) Spend the last few minutes of a year in New York city Time Square ...the atmosphere on tv is amazing..imagine the real thing....
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I dunno...wat are the chances of them happening anyways....ok folks..jus 5 days to christmas ...time to celebrate the past year and bring hope to the following one..hhehehe muackx..
Saturday, December 18, 2004
Going going...........gone
What a relieve. I have packed a part of what needs to be pack. I think this will b the only day that i wished i had fewer stuff. Still, i have no regrets. Hehe
When out with Kaiyun n steph yesterday...then meet up with a couple of councilors.Yups, its always gd to see them.hehe. Went centrepoint to get balloons for Auntie Nat. She is in Mount Elizabeth rm 4420...( i went to the wrong room at first so the number is stuck in my head hahahha).Auntie Nat is fine so is the baby. Its a bit weird seeing her lying on her bed though. Guess i'm too used to seeing her all hyped up.Watching S.W.A.T now, second time i think...( Special Weapon And Tactics= SWAT...for those tt r blur)..
Steph( if you r reading this...hahahha) said she has a bitter sweet feeling. O well, curtain calls. The rainbow comes after the rain.Its tough now but soon it will b better...or so we pray right..hehehe.Muacks
Speaking of bitter sweet. I think everything is bitter sweet. Nothing is perfect i guess. Sometimes we try hard, too hard but end up failing or being disappointed. The sad thing is most of the time we did try our best but its not enough. Luck fate...blah blah. Someone once said that fate is just something that we, human, invented cause we just cant stand things happening coincidenly. Maybe its easier to just to be content. But then again we need our motivation right?...Balance,i guess. know that things are planned out by God and just simply take comfort in it. Thats the important thing. Hehe. Live well, play hard but work a bit harder.
Food-for thought: Bittersweetness. When does the feeling get too overwhelming? How do you get over it?..hehe
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When out with Kaiyun n steph yesterday...then meet up with a couple of councilors.Yups, its always gd to see them.hehe. Went centrepoint to get balloons for Auntie Nat. She is in Mount Elizabeth rm 4420...( i went to the wrong room at first so the number is stuck in my head hahahha).Auntie Nat is fine so is the baby. Its a bit weird seeing her lying on her bed though. Guess i'm too used to seeing her all hyped up.Watching S.W.A.T now, second time i think...( Special Weapon And Tactics= SWAT...for those tt r blur)..
Steph( if you r reading this...hahahha) said she has a bitter sweet feeling. O well, curtain calls. The rainbow comes after the rain.Its tough now but soon it will b better...or so we pray right..hehehe.Muacks
Speaking of bitter sweet. I think everything is bitter sweet. Nothing is perfect i guess. Sometimes we try hard, too hard but end up failing or being disappointed. The sad thing is most of the time we did try our best but its not enough. Luck fate...blah blah. Someone once said that fate is just something that we, human, invented cause we just cant stand things happening coincidenly. Maybe its easier to just to be content. But then again we need our motivation right?...Balance,i guess. know that things are planned out by God and just simply take comfort in it. Thats the important thing. Hehe. Live well, play hard but work a bit harder.
Food-for thought: Bittersweetness. When does the feeling get too overwhelming? How do you get over it?..hehe
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Tuesday, December 14, 2004
Chrismukkah...Wat?
Firstly...wats with the title??...i dunno..its actually very OC...something that Adam Brody's character seth created. Quite cute i think. hahaha. My mum just screwed me 2dae. I couldnt b bothered i guess. Mayb i'm just used to it. Somehow we never reallt did see eye to eye although we do seem to get along. O' well sad but thats that.
Auntie Nat's givin birth to her third child. I'm glad i'm nt the one givin birth...( Ciara on MTV now...my gosh she's HOT...fab dancer too)..Yup as i was saying... Auntie Nat thinks my maternal instincts are kicking in...Hahahaha... i dunno...
I need a job...seriously...really..now that my comp is down looks like i wont b able to download music anymore n actually buy CDs..hahaha...But thats not the only reason lah...hahaha( Chingy on now...hiphop haha)..o yeah... my latest obsession jazz..hahaha...i can just image my house in the future...it will playin jazz music n all...hahhaha..its peaceful i guess.
i wonder hows and whats everyone up to...hmmhmm...elaine was saying abt her crush on her blog...o well at least he's near...around..yups...sigh..
Uncertainty is a huge word. For some of us it just nonexisting of course. FOr those that r conatant...if you noe wat i mean...( Milkshake is on now...hahaha...bring back funnt memories HAHHA)
Food for thought: " Uncertainty" someone please enlighten me on it...hahaha
Auntie Nat's givin birth to her third child. I'm glad i'm nt the one givin birth...( Ciara on MTV now...my gosh she's HOT...fab dancer too)..Yup as i was saying... Auntie Nat thinks my maternal instincts are kicking in...Hahahaha... i dunno...
I need a job...seriously...really..now that my comp is down looks like i wont b able to download music anymore n actually buy CDs..hahaha...But thats not the only reason lah...hahaha( Chingy on now...hiphop haha)..o yeah... my latest obsession jazz..hahaha...i can just image my house in the future...it will playin jazz music n all...hahhaha..its peaceful i guess.
i wonder hows and whats everyone up to...hmmhmm...elaine was saying abt her crush on her blog...o well at least he's near...around..yups...sigh..
Uncertainty is a huge word. For some of us it just nonexisting of course. FOr those that r conatant...if you noe wat i mean...( Milkshake is on now...hahaha...bring back funnt memories HAHHA)
Food for thought: " Uncertainty" someone please enlighten me on it...hahaha
Wednesday, December 08, 2004
everything's different
.....Argh....ah!!!!!So everything has ended...even gradnite. Hmmhmm i dunno y but i have this bitter sweet feeling. So going to miss everyone...my classmates..council...blahblah. Natalia in Indo liaoz...doing China... people like Kaiyun confirm goin abroad so is joleen...Ah.... so many leaving yeah....tisktisk.
Gradnite was fun although i didnt attent it but i was around before and after the whole thing. Got the girls flowers and decorated the room. Its romantic and sweet, with all the candles and flower petals..hehehe..But boy was it stressful...making sure the candles don't go out...surprising everyone..hehehe...Didt slp that night...could have gone clubbing instead went K-box and played pool.Ha....
Juz went out with kaiyun and steph yesterday. I never really understood how pple could juz sit down over coffee and juz talk but now i enjoy it. Its amazing actually how much we could talk about. I guess its because of all the experiences that we've been through. O'yeah i slammed my foot into the cupboard and my toe started to bleed...its damn painful although its juz my toe but...ouch....i haven't cried so much since prelims man..hahaha..oyeah...watched school of seduction..pretty funny plus the gal in it was gorgeous...hahaha
The day before yeasterday, i went to Auntie Nat's. Miss her much..hehehe...ps she is very pregnant should be giving way very soon hahaha. Naomi is so cute abit boy but very adequate.hehehe. We juz hanged out togther ate talked blah..hahaha.
To think that we can actually truely understand and know a person after a year or two might be too naive but i'm should actions speaks louder than words. Through a persons actions and gestures i'm sure the pple around them will actually look through them and mayb even judge them. Whatever we do we are judged and looked and even critised upon. Therefore its inevitable that you will never be totally pleased with someone. Thats, i choose to forgive i guess. I learn from the heartbreaks and different situations not to bother not to behave in a certain way i guess. I dun like arguements and dislike the coldness around some pple thats y some of my frens say i'm givin i guess. But i guess sometimes it takes its toil on me. I end up havin no space and forgiveness for myself feeling kinda blue. The worst thing is you dun even noe those that comfort you are true and sincere or they do it bcoz they are sympathic and/or guilty. Argh so irritating....but i'm learnt to just let go la...not to read too much into things. Hopefully things will thing out ok. hmmhmmm
Food-for-thought: "Does it surprise you that you can actually be such a bastard or bitch sometimes"...are we all missin something/someone?
Gradnite was fun although i didnt attent it but i was around before and after the whole thing. Got the girls flowers and decorated the room. Its romantic and sweet, with all the candles and flower petals..hehehe..But boy was it stressful...making sure the candles don't go out...surprising everyone..hehehe...Didt slp that night...could have gone clubbing instead went K-box and played pool.Ha....
Juz went out with kaiyun and steph yesterday. I never really understood how pple could juz sit down over coffee and juz talk but now i enjoy it. Its amazing actually how much we could talk about. I guess its because of all the experiences that we've been through. O'yeah i slammed my foot into the cupboard and my toe started to bleed...its damn painful although its juz my toe but...ouch....i haven't cried so much since prelims man..hahaha..oyeah...watched school of seduction..pretty funny plus the gal in it was gorgeous...hahaha
The day before yeasterday, i went to Auntie Nat's. Miss her much..hehehe...ps she is very pregnant should be giving way very soon hahaha. Naomi is so cute abit boy but very adequate.hehehe. We juz hanged out togther ate talked blah..hahaha.
To think that we can actually truely understand and know a person after a year or two might be too naive but i'm should actions speaks louder than words. Through a persons actions and gestures i'm sure the pple around them will actually look through them and mayb even judge them. Whatever we do we are judged and looked and even critised upon. Therefore its inevitable that you will never be totally pleased with someone. Thats, i choose to forgive i guess. I learn from the heartbreaks and different situations not to bother not to behave in a certain way i guess. I dun like arguements and dislike the coldness around some pple thats y some of my frens say i'm givin i guess. But i guess sometimes it takes its toil on me. I end up havin no space and forgiveness for myself feeling kinda blue. The worst thing is you dun even noe those that comfort you are true and sincere or they do it bcoz they are sympathic and/or guilty. Argh so irritating....but i'm learnt to just let go la...not to read too much into things. Hopefully things will thing out ok. hmmhmmm
Food-for-thought: "Does it surprise you that you can actually be such a bastard or bitch sometimes"...are we all missin something/someone?
Sunday, November 14, 2004
Shall we ...?
Its 8.01 pm. Did something i havent done in a long time.....swimming....nice to be back in the water i guess. hehehe.Had a near death experience yesterday, almost got knocked down by a car... i'm serious...was just walking across the road when the black BMW dashed across me..come on its red light lor...sheesh...now i have more thought to what my mum always says to me " Be careful and drink more water"...true enough these are the things that i never seem to do. She always says this whether it be as i get out of the car or just before i hang up the phone. hmhm....
Something as simple as a game or music can transcend boundaries age sex....it was also yesterday that we were at anchorpoint watching the 9 goal arsenal match. Amazing...all the guys eyes were in one direction....bet even gisele bunchen cant grab that much attention. The foodcourt was filled with all sorts of pple...men of different ages( the teenager vs the uncles)...race( vicky the indian vs chinese vs italian)...hahaha....its nice..can see y schs and governments all around the global wanna promote sports......it just gels pple together....heheh ( assumption: supporting the same team lah...like duh>>>!!!)
Risk Risks Risks....ever tried something new or for the first time?...Or that something that will just get you all excited....hehehe Richard Gere's character in the movie Shall we dance took the plurge....he tried dancing...maybe it was because " the mask of men lead lives of quiet desperation, now it cant be quiet anymore "....as he sat on the subway going home day after day his eyes traced the sight of the dance sch....and ...boom..one day he decides to go for it....and so the story goes....I guess just like Gere we need that excitement in us...to get us hyped up..a break from our monotoned lives that some of us have...( most of the guys will b lookin 4ward to tonights ManU vs Newcastle match...hahahaha)Come to think of it... i think me taking the A levels is a risk too...with all the hopes and fears..it sure is risky...hahaha. Risk is or used to be taboo i guess. The building blocks of this society that we r living in is security..family..religion...marriage..blahblah...But i guess sometimes will have to take that plurge in order to have stability...the thing is...is it worth it??....Or is that comfort zone so heavenly that you wont wanna try something new or experience something different. Can we really do things with no strings attached? How about the consequences... your values..your friends..your family....and the list goes on...We have so many things holding us back....and so we are conformed by the wall that we build around ourselves. The funny thing is someimes we dun see it but it is clear to the rest. Susan Sarandon said in the movie "You know y we need marriage...because we need witnesses 2 our lives.......Marriage: you are promising 2care about everything good or bad all the time everytime. You are saying yr life will not be unnoticed because i notice it..because i will be yr witness "
Food-for-thought:" I have not failed. i've just found 10000 ways that dont work" -Albert Einstein. Would you try because you heart says so...would you take the risk ?
Something as simple as a game or music can transcend boundaries age sex....it was also yesterday that we were at anchorpoint watching the 9 goal arsenal match. Amazing...all the guys eyes were in one direction....bet even gisele bunchen cant grab that much attention. The foodcourt was filled with all sorts of pple...men of different ages( the teenager vs the uncles)...race( vicky the indian vs chinese vs italian)...hahaha....its nice..can see y schs and governments all around the global wanna promote sports......it just gels pple together....heheh ( assumption: supporting the same team lah...like duh>>>!!!)
Risk Risks Risks....ever tried something new or for the first time?...Or that something that will just get you all excited....hehehe Richard Gere's character in the movie Shall we dance took the plurge....he tried dancing...maybe it was because " the mask of men lead lives of quiet desperation, now it cant be quiet anymore "....as he sat on the subway going home day after day his eyes traced the sight of the dance sch....and ...boom..one day he decides to go for it....and so the story goes....I guess just like Gere we need that excitement in us...to get us hyped up..a break from our monotoned lives that some of us have...( most of the guys will b lookin 4ward to tonights ManU vs Newcastle match...hahahaha)Come to think of it... i think me taking the A levels is a risk too...with all the hopes and fears..it sure is risky...hahaha. Risk is or used to be taboo i guess. The building blocks of this society that we r living in is security..family..religion...marriage..blahblah...But i guess sometimes will have to take that plurge in order to have stability...the thing is...is it worth it??....Or is that comfort zone so heavenly that you wont wanna try something new or experience something different. Can we really do things with no strings attached? How about the consequences... your values..your friends..your family....and the list goes on...We have so many things holding us back....and so we are conformed by the wall that we build around ourselves. The funny thing is someimes we dun see it but it is clear to the rest. Susan Sarandon said in the movie "You know y we need marriage...because we need witnesses 2 our lives.......Marriage: you are promising 2care about everything good or bad all the time everytime. You are saying yr life will not be unnoticed because i notice it..because i will be yr witness "
Food-for-thought:" I have not failed. i've just found 10000 ways that dont work" -Albert Einstein. Would you try because you heart says so...would you take the risk ?
