everything's different

.....Argh....ah!!!!!So everything has ended...even gradnite. Hmmhmm i dunno y but i have this bitter sweet feeling. So going to miss everyone...my classmates..council...blahblah. Natalia in Indo liaoz...doing China... people like Kaiyun confirm goin abroad so is joleen...Ah.... so many leaving yeah....tisktisk.
Gradnite was fun although i didnt attent it but i was around before and after the whole thing. Got the girls flowers and decorated the room. Its romantic and sweet, with all the candles and flower petals..hehehe..But boy was it stressful...making sure the candles don't go out...surprising everyone..hehehe...Didt slp that night...could have gone clubbing instead went K-box and played pool.Ha....
Juz went out with kaiyun and steph yesterday. I never really understood how pple could juz sit down over coffee and juz talk but now i enjoy it. Its amazing actually how much we could talk about. I guess its because of all the experiences that we've been through. O'yeah i slammed my foot into the cupboard and my toe started to bleed...its damn painful although its juz my toe but...ouch....i haven't cried so much since prelims man..hahaha..oyeah...watched school of seduction..pretty funny plus the gal in it was gorgeous...hahaha
The day before yeasterday, i went to Auntie Nat's. Miss her much..hehehe...ps she is very pregnant should be giving way very soon hahaha. Naomi is so cute abit boy but very adequate.hehehe. We juz hanged out togther ate talked blah..hahaha.
To think that we can actually truely understand and know a person after a year or two might be too naive but i'm should actions speaks louder than words. Through a persons actions and gestures i'm sure the pple around them will actually look through them and mayb even judge them. Whatever we do we are judged and looked and even critised upon. Therefore its inevitable that you will never be totally pleased with someone. Thats, i choose to forgive i guess. I learn from the heartbreaks and different situations not to bother not to behave in a certain way i guess. I dun like arguements and dislike the coldness around some pple thats y some of my frens say i'm givin i guess. But i guess sometimes it takes its toil on me. I end up havin no space and forgiveness for myself feeling kinda blue. The worst thing is you dun even noe those that comfort you are true and sincere or they do it bcoz they are sympathic and/or guilty. Argh so irritating....but i'm learnt to just let go la...not to read too much into things. Hopefully things will thing out ok. hmmhmmm

Food-for-thought: "Does it surprise you that you can actually be such a bastard or bitch sometimes"...are we all missin something/someone?