~Cycle~Circle?....

It has no start and it has no end. Thats the beauty of a circle. More often or not, we are trapped, or rather place in it. Things happen without giving you a pre-knowledge and people leave footprints in your life without you knowing it. I'm thankful for all that i have. The beautiful memories and even the tears and heartbreaks. Pris was complaining how in uni everything seemed so shallow. Shiang is stressed and lonely. Not a healthy combination i think. Odear, i hope i could have done something for them, but i can't. Talkin about shallow, i was just thinking how ironic it is....pris complainin and me being in the shallow club.
Sometimes, well, most of the time, i put people before me. I respect their choices and decisions so much so that i've become shadowed. Nah, i dont really think so. Me being giving does not really compromise on who i am. But giving so much....can be tiring. But after awhile, i'm back in the cycle again. There are times i feel like being selfish, keepin things to myself, thoughts to myself. I dun like the idea of burdening others with my problems or anger...or.....I just vented my anger/ insecurities on nat the other night, when he was having problems of his own. Sigh..i apologised, of course. Despite me being a oddball, my friends till tolerated with me. Haha.
Circle the never ending line, the cycle that i'm in, the painful joys it brings me and silent hope for appreciation by those around me.......