Hope is not a plan..: Anderson cooper

happy... happy?..happy!!


Hap·pi·ness
n.
[From Happy.]

1. Good luck; good fortune; prosperity.
2. An agreeable feeling or condition of the soul arising from good fortune or propitious happening of any kind; the possession of those circumstances or that state of being which is attended with enjoyment; the state of being happy; contentment; joyful satisfaction; felicity; blessedness.

幸福 has a sense of contentment, security, stability that is of a longer term...life
快樂 has an annotation of only a period of time, a sense of native and almost child like ideal...which might nt be tt bad actually..at times

快樂 is an expression 幸福 is the concept : it takes more to be 幸福 den to be 快樂

Why is water coming out of your eyes?

Be happy....for me?

They always return exam results in the morning in primary school. At recess time, i will call my mum at the phonebooth, crying to her that i have yet again failed. Ironically,I felt the same way when i called her this morning. Havent felt like this for quite some time and i wun exactly say that i miss it. Its the nauseaing feeling of selfworthlessness.
I try most of the time nt to disappoint and takes the blame harder on myself than anyones if i do. Tiring at times.
More happening things for goshD. Hopefully it all goes well. Time to wrap presents and buy presents. Darn...need more $$$. Elaine...do we need to buy a gift for any gift exchange?...
Can someone pls turn down the aircon in the open studio?!!!......

ah

Its in the eye

i dun want to...................

a year a go



Think of work
Gain weight
Start school
Worry about puting food on the table....ever
Have pimples
Have mosquito bites

woman

I HATE that girl in the mirror.....

The last time hated my face this much was when i had chicken pox. Even then, i didnt left an scars. I hate my face now, what happened to my flawless skin??!!!!! I hate the redness, the brownspots and the uneveness. Maybe i should see a doctor. Argh!!!! i cant stand it. I'm irritated by myself. SUCKS

Object of affection......but in a different colour perhaps..

jan and me


Took this at mustafa. Quite some time ago actually..hehe.
Exams starting 2morow. Soon soon everything will be over. Woohoo

In case u get too bored check out:
SCDA's website : http://www.scdaarchitects.com/web/index.html
Ministry of design (MOD) : http://www.modonline.com/
Woha : http://www.wohadesigns.com/
DP architects : http://www.dparchitects.com/main.html

different moments..same feelings.........

Embarrassing moment: i farted......!!! / Tripping over...

Stressed moment: over exams / over dinner

I-feel-useless moment: not being able to spell / not-being-able-to-help-for-rest

Hopeful moment : she smile / he smiles

..keep getting things for people....no one gets anything for me...
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molly: u are so cute
jia: hahhaa
molly: i can really hear u laugh
dawn:...thats why they(slippers) are called slippers
jia:hahaha

studying making us all go mad

maybe......... maybe not..........

Some one said he would marry me if i'm not by the time i'm 30. The problem is..i forgot who that guy was. Hehe..i wonder if he remembers, but he sure did make me smile even as a kid. There are questions are i cant answer. Not only the ones on my bu notes or history or D&E....but also things like.." rich ah?"..." eyes as beautiful as yours".....blahblah.....
There are things u hope will work out and things u thought will work out. Maybe ...maybe not. In everyway in your life, you try. Something like BU, sometimes in the end u jus go...screw it man. Screw it. hehe
I wanna marry Michael Scofield........

"There is nothing new except what has been forgotten." — Marie Antoinette

Not good enough....

...Wat the....Stop tryin to show off wat you can do. Yeah yeah, i odd to be impressed coz u r nt a aki student. I dun come home enough..does it mean i dun matter tt much any more. Yesh, perhaps i'm nt gd enough, i'm putting myself though work coz i choose to and u think its not a wise move. Yesh i'm not good enough, i shdnt hav done this, i shd hav been that. Dun bother den. Watever. Yesh, we dunno how lucky we are. Yesh we havent been through worst.Yesh u knoe the best for my lifestyle. Yesh the rest agrees with you. Yesh, go ahead do it the way u what to. Yesh, i'm a nobody.

Angst: someone ate my bread again and i cant complain. Already bought a couple more and they are still gone. Not one, not two...all of them. Mummy say it will be rude to label my name on it. i will do it the next time. wth. 2 more wks to submission and the term seems to be comin to an end....

Forrest
Gender: Masculine Usage: English Pronounced: FOR-est From a surname meaning "forest" in Old French, originally belonging to a person who lived near a forest.

Time to be a nun................

we are troublesome...we know

The strength of women comes from the fact that psychology cannot explain us. Men can be analyzed, women merely adored. Author: Oscar Wilde

A pessimist is a man who thinks all women are bad. An optimist is one who hopes they are. Author: Chauncey Depew

A woman's whole life is a history of the affections. Author: Washington Irving

One is not born a woman, one becomes one. Author: Simone de Beauvoir
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Yes ...dawn and andrea my dear cubicle mates have been writing poems..(pls see below:comments). And Andrea has requested multiple mentions of her name.
Hahaha. Yesh jon...moi is a Kermit..hehe the green frog. Ironically, i've been sleeping next to one without knowing our affilation. Heehee.
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Check out the Sentosa IR design in today's straits times..with Erwin's and ttk's comments in it..
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More Random thoughts...

Design..De sign..yes thats wat i need...a sign....

Do you u its proven that better dressed people demand more respect..

Elaine....u still owe me a bolster..hehe...giving u a reason to visit me!!!

Theres a beginning...will there be an end?....

Realise drawings are very impt. It was so hard for gugu to visualise when my cousin couldnt draw...hahhaa

Do u noe tt red+ green=christmas
orange+grey= quite ugly
purple+green= brave
Den again if u can pull it off.............why not....

:) Cheers

Underwraps

Leiyu

We started since April?..Its been half a year of work man and after the last performance 2day everything is over. Tsktsk...Well done all! Thanks to those who helped and supported us!
My intuition dun really fail me, so when things happen...wel..they just do lor. Like how i noe BU is screwed 2gether with my history essay. And design is starting all over again..hmm
Was being quite picky over some of the things i buy..yesh i'm pretty hard to please...but gugu did manage to get more clothes for herself. Think auntie will hav more time soon..yah!..can see her more often. ( sorry for the randomness.....)

u jus might not knoe....

1) I'm easily scarred my mosquito bites
2) I like to be driven although i still wanna knoe how to drive
3) My hands get cold easily
4) I paint
5) I'm not a beach babe
6) I have a lazy eye
7) I take the tone in people's voices quite seriously(becareful with yr " What!"s )
8) I dun like lifts
9) I'm picky over toilets and accessories
10) ....( guess the next one)...hehe..it jus might be about u

Something odd

hmm

Theres smthg odd on my leg.....thigh to be exact...nt sure if its a briuse or a bite.
Somthings things jus happen..jus when nick said he didnt wanna tok to jumeng we bumped into him as we were walkin out of sch....hahaha
As yanghan said...opportunity presents itself....
Think gosh is goin bali...and somehow i;m the welfare rep...tsktsk...told mummy..she was fine with it
She said my pay for homesick is quite good...REALLY!!!! hmmm..lets not count the hours la..tsktsk

Queer feeling..........

sigh

There seem to be crumps of things to do..
Crumps of things i'm feeling
Crumps of things i'm seeing
.........
I want a job i can enjoy doing....argh...someone hire me pls

Whats everyone doing?....10 points

Studio is in a pause. And i'm getting lazy......

1) Eat..yes i do tt you knoe!...Too well i think ( according to jon...theres no such thing..hehe)

2) Paint...yesh i can finally paint but not for my room...just A3...

3) Revit my room..did more work on it...

4) Trimmed my hair...starting to wave though..hav to go back in dec i think

5) Bought a vaccum cleaner

6) Still wanna go ikea...!!!!

7) Supposed to focus on the other modules now...aiyo..lazy lazy!!!

8) Saw Dick Lee at holland v 2dae in coffee bean..hmm

9) Publication....!..at least its smthg i dun mind

10) Wheres everyone ?

Sux to be me....

Submission is over..yesh...the first our of 3 in year 3. Went to watch the devil wears prada after the pin up ( i so prefer pin-up to presentation..hehe) with the girls..and ermm....a guy (pek!! who was wearing pink,wahaha) Den watched a drama-rama chinese rehersal...gasp..so much chinese..hehe. Everyone is having an obsession to get me to eat. I do eat..love it. But i just can stand it when i hav things to finish and they are right in front of me...( the lightbox?..hehe)

Slips of phrases frm my conversation with mengs yesterday..wahaha
"i can see you getting settled down"
" boyfriend"
" open mind traditional soul"
" girls are precious"
" balls shd always be served on the guy's side of the court"
....hehe...guess waht we were tokin abt?..hehe

Compassion..passion..affection....i dun feel it

6.42- studio

The jia got stratched an bruised again. This time its by the lightbox as i fell, the edge of the lightboxgot my abs area. Now its got a red line across it.Sigh. My ass was glued to the lightbox since noon and for mre than 12 hrs only got 3 )...actually less than tt due to the amount of touch up tt need to be done...) panels done. Argh..and its only tracing la...so inefficient!!!!!!

Whats the point of being a daughter when the only time i spend with my mum is in the car when she's fetching me to school
Whats the points of team member , when they disappear
Whats the point of relationshipd when u take an inch...while i take a mile....

Blocked...

.. are my nose and ears. The flu bug got me again, and it doesnt help that i dun hav enough rest...i hadnt had food since subway at noon....submission is near..tutorials just started. Just told a white lie to mummy that i took my medicine..cant coz i didnt eat..so it kinda slipped my mind.Owell. Suddenly it seems overwhelming again. Cant scale things properly, cant make things properly. Wonder how we all had the stamina in Year 1? Perhaps its the freshness of the course...the new friends ard u....
Blocked are my nose and ears..Blocked ,are the people, in design..Blocked

NEGLECTED

...enough said...

Theories of the jia....

The so pretty theory : Everything shd at least look nice. Not trying to be shallow, but must at least look presentable right?.

The monochrome theory : " When in doubt, wear black."

The 3 cs theory : Chemistry Compromise and Communication for every kind of relationship

The eat well slp well ..be well theory : Too bad in aki u will hav to compromise on this. But we shd still try. Proper meals..proper food..soup..milk..honeystick..apples...hmmm

Hi , andrea...by demand..wahaha

Sigh.....

Save

The jia wore a skirt 2dae. I blame it on the insensibility of not-enough-slp unconsciousness. Hahaha. Didn’t make it to Rochester 2dae but did spent $$$$$. Trust me when i say i can spent. Why are the things i like always pricey. Gugu calls it the cursed eye. Where u only hav eyes for nice or expensive stuff. Ofcourse, thank goodness it doesnt happen all the time. Feel deprived man after night after night of working. :P Think my eyes are getting smaller. Submission is a week away, cant wait to get it over and done with. Gugu gave me a new shirt, black and white..duh! Haha. I think she is my biggest influence in fashion, she taught me that I can just live with black and white. Thus, I grew up feeling comfortable with those 2 tones. Haha. O did I mention I wore a skirt..hahaha. Only to the complains of my mummy…”aiyo..why ur legs so fat”… “ ..too bad u are born with legs like tt unlike…” … “ …better dun wear this pair of shoes with skirt..make them look fatter..”…. “ ..can u do smthg about those two spots on your face?...”
Mengs was telling me he noes this guy..rich…smart… sensible, trying to intro me to him..but he got Hot gf ..hahha…too bad. Steph told me she was tryin to promote me..hahaha…aiyo wats up with everyone?...
Everyone seems to be saving up, mengs saving , as always, for car. Jon for his camera…..
What are u saving for?

Its..hmm 7.53am..wat the hack..shd b goin shoppin with drea dawn and all in a couple of hours time. BUT, guess wat, the bunch of us are still in studio. Never realise how printing cading and all could be such a time consuming activity. Life as an aki student. Den again. Its not in our scope. "It" being this set thingy. Saw surprising and shocked faces as i was in Holland yesterday( which is all the same day to me actually ), all in disbelief that i'm goin back sch on a friday night to work.
The right side of my head feels flat...mayb becoz i slp on the table on tt said, wakin up feelin like my neck cant turn anymore. No its not funny ok.! ....o the things we do..the things we do...wheres my apple?..wheres my milk.?..wheres my honeystick?.

The treasure box.

There are things u keep and things u throw away.Things u want to keep and things that dun matter to u. Things u remember...and things u place on your table or pin on you board to help u remember. I vivdly remember helpin gugu pack my cousin's room sometime ago. I strumbled upon a box. I sneezed as i uncovered the box. In it was letters! A whole box full of them. I looked closer to realise that they are all letters frm my counsin's den-girlfriend-now-wife. It was before email was popular so letters were written frm the states to singapore. What a treasure chest. Its amazing how he kept all of them. Some people keep their precious in a box, choosing to keep them hidden, whereas, some choose to put them...... Of course there are those who jus forgot they even had it in the first place. Only discovering they have an unidentified item in their bag after which they throw them away. We all have our own treasure box. For some people, the box is the heart.
Walked home 2dae with a semi-dark sky, its a HOT evening man. Missed BU lecture. Tutorial have not started, alot of pple are complaining about their timetable though. Still in a lazy mode, still in denial tt sch has started...argh. Cant do all that staying over all the time anymore. No stamina liaoz...Life Life...we all need one to live one.

come catch hold of me

Amazing...steph called my homephone when she couldnt get me on my hp..hahaha..so clever. No, tts not the amazing part. The thing is after a day where i wasnt feel alright, she calls and asks me for lunch 2morow..Sigh. I feel better already. She is getting to be like Ruth, my bestfriend, miraclously being there wherever i'm breaking down. ( Ruth came and studied with me before my A levels at a point when i was goin mad..!..jus one of the incidents where she was there without me askin.. :p) "Fall baby fall, like the rain that washes them all. They say tears help you heal..." if the song is true, den i shd be healed for a long time coming. All the way while i was walkin home in the dark..they just came rolling down.
I cant stand last minute work, especially with design. I do take datelines seriously, sometimes i wish people will be less ambitious and greedy. Perfection does not exist! I will rather get things done. Trust me, when u are in the real world, you have to get things done although they might not be what you wish it could be.

Catch me if u can
Opportunities are like doors
but if u dun get hold them while its open
den they will close on you
perhaps its too late
perhaps too much is done by one but not the other
perhaps perhaps perhaps

steps


My alarm clock was an hour late so i end up not goin for my first space and health lect..den again i didnt go for BU. Spent the day with drea jon and studiomate lance ard every aki student's area...art friend..bugis...wahaha. Our feet got all wet while we were waiting for a cab..argh..wet wet wet. Walked home in the dark....again. As i was walking i remembered how one of my friend gave up on the walk half way through some time in JC. hahah..yeshyesh..i live far in..owell. :]Mengs cant stop rushing me to get attached...especially after drea got hers..he asked.." so when is it your turn.."...i gave him THE face..hahaha. To mengs : Sometimes, its not only a choice of mine. Wats more, tonight during dinner, gugu was say..dunno dunno whos son is not bad-looking, with a good background...yadadada...(watever!)Den my mummy changed the subject and asked me whether i'll still be drafting as daddy mentioned he saw two gals using the lightbox the night before. I told her we only using comp in 2nd sem. She exclaimed tt that is better, more professional, higher quality. I told her hand drawn drawings are nice too. Not everything computer u knoe. Gugu agreed. I mean daddy makes things with his hands....perhaps tts where i get my like-making-things-with-my hands genes from. :p

sde rag

SDE rag

jus another day

From mysterious bruises and cuts...come mosquito bits. I got 10...yes...10 in one sitting. ARGH!!! i hate it.. i scar easily so i dun like to get bitten! Our green black white thingy got chosen 2dae...why why why. Aiyo, more work.
Been feeling weird, i dunno why. i wonder how long my patience will last. Not eating properly again, even when yanghan and jan dragged me to the canteen, i didnt get any food. Quite ironic..especially when i bring milk honeystick and apples for pple. owell, i'm jus not hungry la...or mayb you are not convincing enough. One day...jia will b tired of being the milkmaid..jia will hav no more honeystick....den again..why shd it bother u.

My eyes are half open

Its funny how rag ended( will post pictures soon), neither a high nor low. Nope, we didnt win much. But owell, i was more overwhelmed by how the our faculties and the Halls( of course) was impressive. Nicholas did a good job for KR man!! And surprise surprise..Jon was there?..hmm. Its 1pm on a sat and i'm VERY tired..didnt slpt he entire night. Next week school is seriously goin to start! My desk is in a mess with straws. My flu surpisingly went away after rag. My head is spinning. I think i need proper meals. I think....i'm jus goin on and on and on.....
night pple

Are u here? Coz i'm not sure...

why...owhy

Cute pic frm Jon..Thank you!!! Yeah rag is really goin to happen finally after the bunch of us workin so hard on it, it will b heartbreakin to not win anything. My nose is running, falling ill again, didnt tell mum, dun wan her to worry or say i didnt take gd care of myself. " See la, why do u bother about others when u cant even take care of yourself. At the end of the day i'm the only one attenting to u. So much for all that u are man. You're insane jus havin sundae for breakfast den not eating till late at night. No wonder your stomach is screwed every now and den. " Design started...we re year 2 and we sorta hav our own style of working already. Like jon and drea..wat we call the AA kind..experimental.. :). Sakamoto is nice, was tokin to my seniors, they told me some stuff. Owell, i'm glad i knew them somehow.

Top 5 reasons why i wun be an architect:
- i'm too compromising..i'll comply to my clients need rather den being sturborn
- People will take me for granted and make me do everything...
- There is no such thing as a concept to me
- I might jus lose interest at the project
- I like to hav more fun


! Do you noe if you hav to read my blog to check out wat i'm up to....u are probably notvery good as a fren ah...hehe. Where have u been man? Cant even drop by to say Hi..tsktsk. Those who are abroad are forgiven. :P
Seeya ard

Its tiring being nice.....

..especially if u are taken for granted. Den again a big thank you to all those who take a step too, like encouraging me...offering to buy me food/drink.....sending me a song just to cheer me...
Rag is ard the corner!!!!! COme show your support...even if u no business with it...jus come la. See all our hard work pay off, come see me!!!, joking.. come support your school and see amazing floats. :)
I think drea n jon are the experimental kind. They are the AA kind..:)..big thanks to her too. coz design started and i'm running all around... :)
Cheers...c u

Home:sick

Tangled

Yes, i'm having my dinner now
Yes, my mum is heating up my lunch now for herself for supper
No, i cant sleep tonight
No, i havent started sch
Yes, we hav a kinda full-dress rehersal 2dae
Yes, we still hav work to do for costume
No, i hav not showered
No, i havent hav time for myself
Yes, i my eye hurts
And yes, i hav to go now

Maybe its not tt bad

" Maybe you are too nice. People take advantage of u when u are too nice. They step all over you, not taking you seriously. They make fun of you not knowing your boundaries. So what if you put pple before you, so what if you are sensitive to them? Do they do the same to u? ( But we are all wired differently wat..) You are happy go lucky all the time, pple take advantage of your cant-say-no character hence you are always tired. People might treat you nice becoz they pity you. ( aiyo why you so cyncial).Not only one physically, but mentally and emotionally as well. You just keep giving. Den when you are disappointed..u are really disappointed coz u try to please everyone..How about yourself?...Does anyone care if u reach home safe? Do they wish you goodnight? Do they treat you as you treat them ( But not one ever said life was fair..so i'm jus..well...unlucky to be at this end lor ..) Do they knoe when you are angry or stressed? Den when you are you try not to bother them with your problems...aiyo..den everything to yourself. Its not worth it la but i knoe you are jus instinctively like tt. ( Everyone is different..it doesnt mean they should be deprived of a little nice-ness although there are those tt i just cant bring myself to) Your new motto in life shd be: i dun give and damn..(hahaha owell..) "

If you are not anxious does it mean you cant be bother
If you dont ask does it mean you dun care
If you are indifferent to everything
What makes you treat pple any different
Theres perhaps too much apathy in people
to hav sufficient empathy..........
Listen to what you hear
Observe what you see
Understand what you know

Random thoughts...again

follow the light...

Ikea...the thought of it makes me sigh...

Trying and achieving are two different things....

If i ask you...will u say yes?

A few things worth holding on to... i shd start to make a list

Lines are there for a reason: for safety for security for clarity....Yet, the bigger the line the bigger the temptation to cross it

Life is not a spectator sport..win lose draw...its a progress

Walk me through it

Dun call never call.........jus show up..jus be there...

All that comes ard.....

Any given day...


goes ard...steph celebrated her 21st birthday 2dae. Dear elaine planned everything amonth ahead to suprise her. hahaha. The things we do for our friends man. Love arent for the lazy. As elaine started to wine in front of us, we listen to her, nodding. We are all grateful. Thank you. And yes...we knoe getting jus the couple of us down is not easy. hehe
Weird, how some things never change, or people for that matter. Para is still as crappy..blahblah. Den steph was tokin abt marriage..hahaha...good..i can buy a dress soon. :)
Some weird qns were thrown at me 2dae...but nah....i wun tok abt it here. Anyways, everyone we askin me what i hav been doin or hav been...hahaha. Told them i'm moving...den they all let out a big "CHEY" when i told them where...hahhaa. Owell, i wish i had more free time, den can do more stuff for everyone...sigh.. :) now i'm thinking about my room..hmm

cheesecake

"It doesnt mean when people support u, they love you. Sometimes it just means that you are helpless"-eddie said to terri hatcher in desperate housewives. Gosh...this makes things difficult. So when do u really knoe when pple do things out of love and not just because u asked them to or the fact tt you are just helpless. Perhaps its tt look in the eye, that simple gesture or those simple words. Hmm. Cheesecake...nt just any cheescake but the one above. Its the little things tt count, although the big ones cannot be ignored, like the raspberry beneath it, the white chocolate above it...hehe..So when i say thank you to my costume girls...i mean it. I noe i'm not there always...sorry...Same to k, i noe i didnt go to all yr mambo sessions..too busy la..hehe..To 03s72...sorry..if aki wasnt as tiring..i will be there as SF said...hehe...to 26th..yeah..will be seeing some of u soon..thank goodness for those mini gatherings although it is literally impossible to get everyone down..hehe
Argh sch is starting soon, can u believe it!!! If seeing is believe...i guess i hav to with the timetable on my table. At least this holiday was quite fun...with hk trip..with foc...with rag..with goshD.. :) Went mustafa 2dae...rocks my socks man tt place. They hav everything...and its cheap..of course quality not included. Not to mention the clumpsy incidents i have there. Only to realise that i do hav a cut ( a very small one la) from it. Told my mum, and she wonders why i'm a girl in the first place. I cant stand couples or families in the same outfits...its embarrassing. Its a lack of creativity coz u jus basically jus put everyone with the same thing. None-the-less, i bought matching t-shirts for my cousins..coz i noe the mother likes it. :P I need to paint..but i cant start. I need to rag..but i cant put my foot to it. I need to stone/play ...but i dun hav time for it. Tsktsk...

We all exist differently...to different people

existing differently

I'm never the kind that forces people to do things. It should come naturally to them..thus making their actions more of an initative and more sincere. So when my costume girls work, i feel bad. Cause they have a choice not to care, its not their obligation. Sigh, u dun want rag to make me a bad "boss/head", putting friendship in jeopardy. Too sensitive?..maybe..i dunnno. A friend of mine was jus talking to me about his problematic relationship, owell, i think he will swear off women for awhile.
We all hav different priorities in our lives. We place pple in almost the same way as well,some more important than the other. Sometimes we get them mixed up. Yes....we all exist. But differently to different people. How u place people in your life and how people place you. Both, i believe is in your own hands. You can choose not to care about someone, you can choose to just let fate do its job or you can choose to take a step forward. All these decisions are based on our judgement,intuition, reasoning and liking. On the other hand, how u treat people, will decide how u are placed on their list. Not like its of any importance to you, but as usual, importance is relative. Say for example: my fren did all he think a guy shd do to chase tt girl but alas...So moral of the story: you are as important as u want yourself to be. So how do u think you exist?
We are like car parks sometimes, underrated. People, like cars, just come and go. They never stay forever, do they? You are just a temporary parking space, a space for rent. We all have a "car park" of our own. Some cars leaving a scar...some permanently damaging us...some we will remember for the rest of our lives. Then, there are some tt park there forever. What i think is important is tt our car park shd be open all the time no matter how reluctant we might be...coz who knoes?....the next car tt comes in might just park there permanently. :)

A dose of reality....

Life....

A day was spent with the adults. As they talked about marriage..property..money and all. Realising how some people are not efficient at all. Case 1 : A property agent when letting people( potential buyer ) view the house, did not even bother opening the windows to show how ventilated the whole is.Dump! When asked of the details of the house ie how high the ceiling is...how much is maintence...they do not know. I mean isnt it your job...what happen to your homework..out of 10 qns 9 she couldnt answer...!!! Case 2 : If the whole property mkt is on the rise and your client's tenant wants a cut in rental OF COURSE its a no! You shd be helping your client to make more $ plus its not as if the rise in property is a secret to everyone..Wake up pple!!!...You wun survive if you are anywhere else man. My uncle frm hk was complainin how inefficient pple are..how slow they seem to be...hmmm. Also being amongst the adults as they visit houses make me realise what are the things pple do not like and what not the design or bulit i guess...hahaha
From mysterious bruises comes mysterious cuts....weird. You know the bad thing about being in a big family. You kinda just disappear. Kinda like it doesnt really matter if you are there or not..you will just be literally missed. And when u do do smthg, you hav to tell the same thing to not only your parents but also the everyone else. Den of course, there is the good side:soup and all.............
Perhaps its the way i've been nowadays.. : unimportant..missed....invisible....forgotten..unremember..
*Keep your finger and toes crossed for thurderrain and homesick please.. :P

The urge to paint....

paint


I use to do it every time the holidays comes. Switch on the radio and just paint the whole day through and through. Now i have the urge to paint...again...the last time i painted was for my P3.
This time....a bigger scale!!!!
Receiving mail via nus mail is stressful. The unfortunate reminder that school is indeed starting in less den a month!!! AH!!!!!!! This is a list of to dos before school starts..gotta make me happy...care to join me? :P

1) Go botanical gardens..dun ask me why...i just have an urge to go there la...

2) Paint..!!! But where is the time?...

3) Watch more plays....which i will with homesick and all ard the corner..!!!

4) Remember to bid on CORS for myself and drea...cant depend on lloyd all the time sia..especially now tt he's..*ahem

5) Meet up with friends...which i will..with steph's bdae coming soon...

6) Lunch....?

7)Stone

Sigh so much to do so little time!!!....not to mention rag!!! thurderrain...and homesick..siao la..

Cheer me!!! today..tomorow...always!

Are we cold blooded..?

ah...its getting cold...


Yes...is the temperature dropping?....or so says this board found next to a bus stop. Indeed, in times like this ( holidays and jobs...) everyone seems very unattached to one another. Everyone is minding their own business, not like there is anything wrong with that, but but how about those ard u? Sigh, we always want pple ard us to take the first step, to ask, to initate. Why not you? Hence i've given up, tired of being disappointed by different people. After awhile u realise u care or give more attention...but...wats the point?... No bothers anyway right? Despite all the disappointing people, there are those who are supportive all the time, those who are there without u asking..those who do help you..those who do appreciate your existence.
So which are u on?

Just do it. In name of the nike slogan, the whole orchard was covered by foot today. Its not as if we hav never done it, its the circumstances which got us walking that was quite queer. Bus 14 took such a long time to arrive i literally knitted. Tsktsk. Got excited about moving to a new place after visiting ikea 2day. Must be the whole design streak. You must understand my family never really believe in hiring a designer...we do it ourselves. :) May 2nite be a cozy night to rest all the tired bodies and may 2morow's dawn be a sight of new hope and aspiration.

i fondly remember...

* Inspired by jan.....who blogged her sch pics..hehe..i wish i took more though..:)

I fondly remember the sound of the school bell
The sight of unsightly teachers
The taste of the fabulous canteen food
The smell of the chemistry labs and the field after a rainy day

I fondly remember the times when we knocked on the teachers door to beg them for advice
the sight of certain teachers that made our eyes roll
the mischievous ways we all did in one way or the other..

I fondly remember the laughter tears and conversation all day round.
When we were silly...when we were upset and when we all had stories to share....






u will be face to face with these words as u walk up the stairs...

Council room...where u can do everything..eat sleep study play

St. Andrew's Junior College

in between the classrooms

the corridor of the classroom blocks

view from the balcony and canteen...

Listen to your heart and pay attention to it

The title was inspired when i was watchin oprah primetime ( with anderson cooper, the cnn reporter) :
"you cant chose who/how u were born, but u can chose how u live your life"

4/28/2006 : The catalyst

Was talking to a friend just awhile ago, she hasn’t known me for long but she kind of knows me
quite well already. We were chatting along and here are some extracts:

Fren says:everyone is just waiting for cupid to strike. =)
Fren says:fate and time will tell. He/she doesn't have to rush for it
..................................................................

Fren says:actually opp. attracts only holds true for certain cases.
Fren says:there's no generalizations when it comes to r/ns.
Fren says:not only r/ns.. everything in fact.
Fren says:ppl are generalizing more frequently only because of the media... the narrow minded messages perpetuated by the media.
Fren says:it's difficult to explain but... just want to tell u tt u can't generalize too much

.…………................................

Fren says:but i understand. =)
Fren says:it's too late and i am too old and time is too little for me to break into your circle. hahaha-
Jia :.. says:but i'm used to keepin things to myself la
Jia :. says:i dun believe in burdenin pple
Jia :.. says:with my problems
Jia :.. says:hehe
Fren. says:actually, everyone has a way of managing their own lives. if u feel tt u r living the best way now, it's great =)
Fren. says:there's no need to conform to standards but...
Fren says:don't treat sharing stuff as burdening people. =)
……………………………………..

Fren says:it's ok
Fren says:but relax gal.
Fren says:u are too...
Fren says:tight i feel..
Fren says:the line is tauted..
Jia :.. says:hehe
Jia :... says:at times la
Jia :. says:but i;ve learnt to jus let go la
………………………………………………..

Fren says:actually...
Fren says:everyone has 2 sides to em'...
Fren says:what she cannot imagine doesn't mean it doesn't exist
Jia :... says:true true
Fren says:everyone needs a catalyst.
Jia :.. says:some stronger than another
…………………………………………………………………………………………….

The ears on you........

do u listen?

I like this picture. Took it while walking from arab street to bugis. Imagine if u did follow the instructions. U will definitely stop traffic. Talking abt traffic, my dad was stopped at sixth avenue 2day...cos there was a car on fire...ah!!!!. We had to make a U-turn. I wanted to see it la!

Imagine wat earth will say if u listened. Imagine wat u missed if u didnt listen to the people around you. Do you listen enough?. Its a common notion that u listen more to the people that u actually care about. Do you?. Do u tend to miss what people have to say cause u cant be bothered or perhaps u jus drifted. Its actually quite irritating that people 'huh' at u when u finish a sentence. Thanks man..thanks for the attention u have been giving to me. Then again, there are those who not only dont make use of their ears, they dun like to use their mouths too. Is it so hard to take intiative to ask or pretent you care. Ignite your sense pple. Show pple that they work or before u know it...people will stop using theirs on you.!!!

Chronicles2

Haji Lane

After a day of walk and talk...
i realise there are unexplained places of where i got my bruises..hehe
i also realise we are all human after all...destiny....


Friday, February 18, 2005

Des'tiny
Destiny n. fate; one's future destined by fate.Fate n a power thought to control all events, a person's destiny.These are the words taken from my oxford english dictionary. Destiny a tiny word that is so hard to comprehen. Even the dictionary seems abit ambiguous. Destiny is our mask. A pathetic excuse for all that we failed to achieve. Conveniently, we put the burden of fault and mistakes on what seems an uncontrollable force. Perhapes we ache for comfort and redemption in all we do, and once we are unable to convince ourselves we are self-worthy, we blame it on poor fate. Think abit closer and harder, and you will realise that fate is innocent.Are will afraid of destiny? The confrontation with fate is not something anybody can endure. You need the courage. To be able to take control of it or rather face it. 'It is destiny' - phrase of the weak human heart! 'It is destiny' - dark apology for every error! The strong and virtuous admit no destiny."-E. R Bulwer-Lytton. Taking destiny into your own hands; do you dare?, In a world where most of us aren't even able to face it.Sow an act...reap a habit; Sow a habit...reap a character; Sow a character...reap a destiny. Destiny is not a stranger. However, its the better of ourselves. Every action every thought,even the impetuous ones. result in destiny. Perhapes destiny is just our true self and all that what life have given us.Embrace destiny and forgive fate for most if not all are your own doing. Destiny is god-sent, as are we. Don't blame it, face it wholeheartedly. Accept the things to which fate binds you, and love the people with whom fate brings you together, do so with all your heart. At such you will realise that fate or destiny could be your lifetime companion. :)

chronicle1

Nowadays i'm running out of gas to write my blog. Perhaps i dun feel inspired to type/write anymore. I started to read my past blogs, which are indeed more interesting and thoughtful...so yea.. in the next few entries u will see a recap of some of my fav.. btw if u are ever interested...try readin frm the way beginning( my first blog)...wahaha.. thats like if u free lah..hehe..cheers :P

6/07/2005

Susan from desperate housewives said something yeaterday that striked me. She spoke, as she seat on the steps outside her house, at her flamboyant mother, "...well unlike you, you can just move on...while i got heartbroken and i just remain......broken." Women had come a long way since the chasity belt and binded feet days, but in every two minutes a woman is raped and in every minute a woman gets heartbroken. Of course there are the exceptions, such as the bitches, who seem to lack in both heart and soul. The bimbos, whom i call " vase"; beautiful on the outside empty on the inside. On a whole the female creature is a beautiful creation. ( Reminder: never judge before you know ). As the new Miss Universe is crowned, i an reminded of the Miss Universe singapore contest broadcasted on television, which i got a glance of. It was the question and answer section. " What do you think is a woman's greatest strength and weakness?" asked Nadya, the host. Before the contestant said her answer, i gave mine to the televsion : The greatest strength and greatest weakness = Love. Because of love, we are willing to sacrifice all and because of this love we can do the unbearable, even if it means giving up our lives or harming others. Such strength makes it our weakness too, sometimes we get taken advantage of. We lose time, energy, youth and sometimes our heart, we become vulnerable. If love is a leap, then we leap everyday.Perhapes we are just wired differently, man might complain about our PMS moodswings, our implusive actions and even our stupidity. But the infidelity rate amongst man is much higher while the amount of woman who shed a tear over man multiples with time. I think we are like balls. When we are young we are the rugby ball. Man are willing to dive, scrum or even break a bone for us. Then we bcome the soccer ball, being kicked around by 22 men on the field. We get older, we become the basketball,bouncing around 10 men, not that bad. Then we become the tennis ball, alternating about two men. Lastly, we be come the golf ball, where we are swinged as far as possible into the hole.I'm not saying you have to give in to us all the time, just words of assurance, love and maybe a simple gesture. You dont' necesarily have to love us, say your are sorry be kind to us or even respect us. Just,...please....., at least be gentle.

Randon thoughts 2

Movie - ...jus saw one...nt bad :)

Stage sets - ..two and counting..

Andrea - ....hmm busy?..

Kaiyun - where are u??

Hax - Where are u?!!!

Architecture - Are u sure?

Layout - I Like... :)

Kids - quite fun...but nt all the time

Relationships - compromise communication chemistry

GoshD - hehe :P

School - not looking-forward

You - Cheer me.....

......a reflection of the sky...

the special thing u notice is the narrow street with tons of vehicles..both big and small...

the new kid on the block..

CITY!!!!!CENTRAL!!!

theres a certain buzz abt the place....

the spaces in between.....den u look up...yups

my ice lemon tea...a staple drink

hongkong island...

looks like the sail...

a gloomy day over lookin ....