We're girls,...............please be gentle

Susan from desperate housewives said something yeaterday that striked me. She spoke, as she seat on the steps outside her house, at her flamboyant mother, "...well unlike you, you can just move on...while i got heartbroken and i just remain......broken." Women had come a long way since the chasity belt and binded feet days, but in every two minutes a woman is raped and in every minute a woman gets heartbroken. Of course there are the exceptions, such as the bitches, who seem to lack in both heart and soul. The bimbos, whom i call " vase"; beautiful on the outside empty on the inside. On a whole the female creature is a beautiful creation. ( Reminder: never judge before you know ). As the new Miss Universe is crowned, i an reminded of the Miss Universe singapore contest broadcasted on television, which i got a glance of. It was the question and answer section. " What do you think is a woman's greatest strength and weakness?" asked Nadya, the host. Before the contestant said her answer, i gave mine to the televsion : The greatest strength and greatest weakness = Love. Because of love, we are willing to sacrifice all and because of this love we can do the unbearable, even if it means giving up our lives or harming others. Such strength makes it our weakness too, sometimes we get taken advantage of. We lose time, energy, youth and sometimes our heart, we become vulnerable. If love is a leap, then we leap everyday.
Perhapes we are just wired differently, man might complain about our PMS moodswings, our implusive actions and even our stupidity. But the infidelity rate amongst man is much higher while the amount of woman who shed a tear over man multiples with time. I think we are like balls. When we are young we are the rugby ball. Man are willing to dive, scrum or even break a bone for us. Then we bcome the soccer ball, being kicked around by 22 men on the field. We get older, we become the basketball,bouncing around 10 men, not that bad. Then we become the tennis ball, alternating about two men. Lastly, we be come the golf ball, where we are swinged as far as possible into the hole.
I'm not saying you have to give in to us all the time, just words of assurance, love and maybe a simple gesture. You dont' necesarily have to love us, say your are sorry be kind to us or even respect us. Just,...please....., at least be gentle.

J' Adore

Wrapped up


I like the sound of laughter...the sight of light in the dark sky...the aroma of the bakery...the touch of pillows and blankets and the taste of macadamia nuts ice-cream. J' Adore....heehee...Those little things that brings us back to our unpretentious self...usually the most basic and simple of things. Sure..we might like to experience different things but at the end of the day we make a choice of what we prefer....
Have been in touch with my love for performances lately...threatre..concerts..dances...heehee. I like and enjoy them just as much as i enjoy sports. So blessed ...i am..to have close friends who share the same obsessions as me..haha.The ubiquitous cell-phone. Sigh..i think i dropped it a record-high this month..the cover comes on and off..tisktisk..lucky for me the phone is still in working condition. Yet another sigh....one of my good friends ( ...realise that i have quite a lot of good frens..keep refering to diff. ones..hmmhhmm..hehe)..is leaving for melbourne..where half ,if not, the whole world is..heehee..odear..going to miss her company for sure..haha.(...oops..feeling a bit hungry at this point of time..heehee..)..
i realise as we grow we perceive beauty...life..time and even love in a different way..(is this a sign of maturity or age?)..heehee. Perhapes we know that there is more than meets the eye...or perhapes we are in denial. Acting childish seems to come naturally, but acting like an adult, no matter how old we are, just doesn't come easy to us. Its is true..there is a child in each of us or rather a baby..that part of us that earns for security ,love and a big hug, no matter how old we are or what sex we belong to.
So keep that baby-ness in you..for in that tiny creature...holds the key to your youthfulness and what you desire the most out of life. As Jack Benny, American comedian/actor/performer, said "Growing old is a case of mind over matter. If you don't mind, it doesn't matter"...So rock-a-by

catching the wind

I wake up the past few days with a pain in my mouth.Think its my gums. My assumed notion is that i'm " heaty" or so according to the chinese. Too much spices, fried stuff etc...then...my nose started to run...again...i never wun have any of these problems if i was still in school, my mum noted. Its true, the early morning results in early sleep and in school i'm more active i guess. At least i get to move from class to class and talk and laugh with my mates. Hopefully, its not my age that is catching up on me.
Its a gloomy rainy sunday. Just yesterday, i met up with my council friends ...again...( hmhm..we seem to meet up every sat....). This time i get to see some that i havent seen in a long time. And boy....some things never change....like how boo 's coiffure is way cool...caleb has ...still...all the funny stories to rattle on about...now dan chi and shiang are still skinny...how nat is still flirty...blahblah..heehee. Nothing much has changed except the clothes that we're in.
And so in about two months i embark on a journey, where i will test the waters of my environment and the pple around me once again. That coveted spot for me to feel that i've made the right choice is still empty. Guess only time will tell. I'm not a pompous individual and i do not inspire to be one, but wat if i appear as one with low-confidence and dignity? Lacking in self- importance...I believe everyone draws a line in their heads as they judge people. but sometimes the first impression is not the one you should judge by although there could be no second. Keep an open mind....i say...keep an open mind.
I wanna make business my pleasure and pleasure my business in the future decades of my life. therefore i have(..i wun say giving up on being pragmatic)...just choosen something i will be able to wake up every morning ...look into the mirror and be glad i'm doin something i enjoy...... :)

Tribute

karma

Yours truly....

JOCK

.....ok... i admit... it has been a thousand years since i blogged....too lazy...too occupied i guess...hehehe. In between all these time i had a fantastic birthday slumber party...i worried over my application...workin....spending money. I realise how pple can actually get bored with their jobs...guess its the whole repeat same thing everything that kills pple. Have been quite a freak recently....catchin all the weird tv shows like desperate housewives...The o.c...and one tree hill.....but i must say i learn alot from them at the same time i get entertained by them. As the clock ticks day by day...we take a step backward as smthg and take a step forward as smthg else. Its part of living and growing. Yes, time, yours truly, will make you realise that you can do smthg that you once deemed impossible....it will unlock the many other doors you hav inside of you and show you the path tat just might let you see the light at the end of the tunnel. I for one hav been makin use of my late night for some craft work...It 1st started as a little experiment...den...it became smthg more....Do you like it?...Will you want to have it ?...Share with me what you think as no two watches do like alike. Remember to buzz me through my comments and leave your e-mail add. So let time perform its miracle....as miracles do happen. "Love is the great miracle cure. Loving ourselves workes miracles in our lives"- Louise L Hay.

bubble

The link

sunset

I ve just finished reading the five people you will met in heaven ( yes ..i noe..i'm a bit slow...better late than never yeah..haha) It makes me realize how small this world is and how interconnected we are as humans. The fact that one thing leads to another was never that clearly presented to me. As my eyes grace through each and everyword, the story unfolds. How everyone has its place one earth whether they might be playing a small or big role. How hatred is not a motivation for attack but the harm it does, it does only to ourselves. I feel enlightened somehow. Its a short book but i enjoyed it and had since aspired me to influence others the way the book has.
" Sometimes when you sacrifice something precious, you're not really losing it. You're just passing it on to someone else" Energy, time, love........it might seem sacrificed. But even when you deny it, it has, in fact benefited at least one individual. So when you feel tired and useless at the end of the day, dont depair cause you have made a difference.
I ve aways thought that the root of all problems is caused by family. " Youth, like pristine galss, absorbs the prints of its handlers. Some parents smudge, others crack, afew shatter childhood completely into jagged little piece, beyond repair" They always leave their marks on us. Only as we grow older we realise its power. But its too late.
So as we sit in our chair, we 're haunted by our past, living in the present and unaware of the future. But do remember to breathe and take comfort that there is still tomorrow to be a better person.

The three Cs....

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As i struggle with my university addmission, i'm brought back to a very important interaction between human being. Confusing? Well, i was enjoying Will Smith's latest movie Hitch.( Wonderful movie may i add...definitely recommandable...especially to the male species..) And it made me realise that relationships play an important part in life. Whether it's the clinche boy-girl romance..the father daughter relationship.., your simple hi-bye kind of friends..or juz friendships. Its everywhere. Every corner that you turn, every thought you make. It is inevitable that relationships are form...can you believe it, every second in this world, there is a relationship forged. "Life is not about the breathe you take. Its about the moments that take your breathe away"-Hitch.
I have, told this to a couple of my dear friends, came up with the three Cs for every successful relationship.

1) "C" hemistry- The catalyst. Its not found in the labs. Instead, its found in a look of an eye, a sound of a voice or even intuition. A form of attraction, uncontrollable, undeniable and unexplainable.

2) "C" ompromise- Its a very tricky word but it can not be underrated. It's a two way thing of give and take. Perhapes, its harder for some, perhapes it needs hardwork.Forgive? Forget?...maybe. Its a step that has to be taken imminently and carefully.

3) "C" ommunication- Even if you have to use hand signals. Do not forget to communicate. It promotes better understanding and prevents insecurities. Of course, you will have to be frank and clear. Whether it's talking or writting. Any form of communication is good communication. The thing is to get the message across.

So my friends, lets all hope that with any relationship we will remember theses "basic principles". As every human interaction should be cherished. Do not forget to entertain or get to know strangers along the way of your life. Cause by doing so you might have entertained or known angels.
*Ps: my fifth piece of design is sold today..hehe (:*

To be or not to be....

Many things happen in mysterious ways. But i guess it does happen for a reason. I was in Hk recently. It was a feast for my senses. I'm back in a place where i'm uncomfortably fitted in. All of a sudden, my incompetence in my second language started to creep into me as i filled up the endless forms for my new IC. Karma, i think..haha. Its strange. I've never really heard pretty and my name in the same sentence before so when pple started to, i felt weird. People around there are different. In a good and bad way i guess. Its funny how two places seperated by just 3 plus hours of flight can have such different defintions about different things. Then again, i embrace diversity. It makes the world go round espescially in such an integrated world we're in now. I guess i needed the break. Was getting abit over the top worrying about the As..haha.
Hong kong reminds me of japan, although i can't say the same for the toilets, just that i'm not a handicap there. Their kinky sense of style ,their service attitudes... mayb its the proximity or mayb its the weather. Speaking of weather, its was cool in HK, abt 13 degrees when i was there. While people were trying to escape from the cold weather, i was actually escaping the heat. Haha. This trip made me realise how small singapore is. A dot. Hk looks important some how. I'm not discriminating against s'pore ( mind you, i was born and raised here )... Its just, well, different. Perhapes its something in the air or perhapes the grass is greener on the other side. The skyline in hk is gorgeous. Its looks even better at night as the sky-scrappers lighted up the dark sky. The light shadow looked like diamonds dancing on the water, shimmering under the cool evening sky.
My results was out. I stood in a corner as my aunt phoned my mum. One by one the grades started to pop out her mouth. The thought of that moment sends chills down my spine....again..haha. I didnt do that well. I'm not happy nor am i disappointed. I'm happy for all my friends. They did good. I'm serious. I'm not puting myself short, its just the truth.haha.
Our lives are made up of magic little moments which arrive unexpectedly. And in these magic little moments, lies the very best of life. As my college life offically comes to an end, as enduring friendships continues, a new chapter in life unfolds. May magic be paper and reality be pen, as my life story begins to write a brand new chapter.
( Btw...another of my design was sold on the day i left..hehe)

Public Announcement Service...

What have you done?....What do you consider as done? Life is an everlasting book of riddles. Every page you turn are words to humour you and sentences that describes you. Cynical?Maybe. Skeptical? Yes. Perhapes its my insecure nature to be blamed. Or my inabilties? Our achievements,i believe, is measured by how much we put out....may it be in terms of sacrifice ...love...time or energy. So why are there so many doubts in me? Whatever outcome it might be, i should be content. I should believe. i should move on. I should....
Maybe all the shoulds are just a lame excuse for my shortcomings. Perhapes i deserve all that have happened. I embraced fate, for it has brought me joy. But at the same time it has brought the world's sorrow and grieve .People of mediocre ability sometimes achieve outstanding success because they don't know when to quit. Most men succeed because they are determined to.Perhapes i dont have that endurance and patience. Perhapes time will to its magic and spark a miracle for me... :) Lets all hope, pray and beg that whatever the future lies...its all been taken care of...and it shall bring self-worth and joy... :)..... May i begin with a new beginning but with the memory of the old journey.
btw....i will b away for abt a wk....so leave your messages here for me k....hehe...muacks

Des'tiny

Destiny n. fate; one's future destined by fate.
Fate n a power thought to control all events, a person's destiny.
These are the words taken from my oxford english dictionary. Destiny a tiny word that is so hard to comprehen. Even the dictionary seems abit ambiguous. Destiny is our mask. A pathetic excuse for all that we failed to achieve. Conveniently, we put the burden of fault and mistakes on what seems an uncontrollable force. Perhapes we ache for comfort and redemption in all we do, and once we are unable to convince ourselves we are self-worthy, we blame it on poor fate. Think abit closer and harder, and you will realise that fate is innocent.
Are will afraid of destiny? The confrontation with fate is not something anybody can endure. You need the courage. To be able to take control of it or rather face it. 'It is destiny' - phrase of the weak human heart! 'It is destiny' - dark apology for every error! The strong and virtuous admit no destiny."-E. R Bulwer-Lytton. Taking destiny into your own hands; do you dare?, In a world where most of us aren't even able to face it.
Sow an act...reap a habit; Sow a habit...reap a character; Sow a character...reap a destiny. Destiny is not a stranger. However, its the better of ourselves. Every action every thought,even the impetuous ones. result in destiny. Perhapes destiny is just our true self and all that what life have given us.
Embrace destiny and forgive fate for most if not all are your own doing. Destiny is god-sent, as are we. Don't blame it, face it wholeheartedly. Accept the things to which fate binds you, and love the people with whom fate brings you together, do so with all your heart. At such you will realise that fate or destiny could be your lifetime companion. :)

Wanted....want....wanting

As a little girl i wanted my mummy when i fell down. I wasnt ashamed of what i wanted. They were the most basic : love, security... This little girl grew older day by day and realized the world is not like in the story books which she loves so much. Things are much more confusing, nothing is black or whilte. In fact everything was in shades of grey. Therefore, as the lines between very definition begin to grow thinner, so did my wants. I wanted a fairy tale ending, i wanted attention, i wanted more...Now as think back on my wants, everythings seems so naive. I guess its just part of growing up. We change and become more realistic and practical, cynical, in fact. Our desires are limited by the barriers we bulid around ourselves.
I received a missed call today. The phone on the other line was picked up as i returned my call. The news came : My design was sold. I couldn't believe it. Its natural that i want my design to do well but this news was a little too quick for this 18 year old i guess. Wants are like wishes in a way. But they are more realistic, they can actually happen. Sometimes at the most unexpected moment. Do you want something? Do you want someone? Is that urge overwhelming? I believe our wants will become our desires and it will be this very force that keeps us motivated at the dawn of each new day.
Wanting...it may seem like a favour...its like a reality- in-waiting. The fact its "ing" means its an action....movement....The result of want = wanting. Wanting are what i like to put it : long term goals.Of course long is subjective. Everyone is wanting something. The difference is those who actually catch it and make it a reality, and those who just allow it to echo in their heads till they fade away.
Wanted...want...wanting...they are separated by time. What you wanted may not be what you want. Time changes everything. Did your wanted become a want and then a wanting?... i believe there are somethings that will....Like love... security...protection. The stuff that we wanted as kids might be what we want all our lives. Geoffrey F. Albert said :Prosperity depends more on wanting what you have than having what you want. Indeed want is a great motivation...give in to this craving temptation...of desire

The invitation

the invitation
It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. i want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing.
It doesn't interest me hw old you are. i want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dreams, for the adventure of being alive.
It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon. i want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life's betrayals or have become shriveled and closed frm fear of further pain. i want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it.i want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own, if you can dance with the wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, to be realistic, to remember the limitations of being human.
It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me is true. i want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself; if you can bear the accusation of betrayal and nt betray your own soul; if you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy.i want to know if you can see beauty, even when it's not pretty every day, and if you can source your own life frm its presence.i want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and still stand on the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, "yes!"
It doesn't interest me to know where you live or hw much money you have. i want to know if you cn gt up, aft the night of grief and despair, weary, bruised to the bone, and do what needs to be done to feed the children.
It doesn't interest me to know who you know or hw you came to be here. i want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back.
It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. i want to know what sustains you, frm the inside, when all else fails away.i want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.

This is adapted from fely.....i liked it....hope you do too. Its speaks for itself. All that we feel or might be feeling...the questions and the , perhapes, answers..

What conquers...??~

Sun tabloid proclaimed: "Love has conquered all." Prince Charles's announcement came just before St' Valentine's Day. In his fifties, he is about to embark on another journey of married life. This time, it seems right. for he is about to tie the knot with the woman he first set his eyes on about 30 years ago. Fate has a way of toying with us : i rest my case.
Is it a case of better late than never?. As i sit in my ikea bought chair typing. a sense of guilt hangs over me like a dark cloud. My good friend, sherilyn, is leaving for the Uk for a month on an exchange programme and i'm not at the airport to hug her good-bye. There are reasons though but the sense of guilt still lingers...There are some things that are now or never. Not everyone is so lucky to be given or oftered a second chance. As Napoleon said: " Ability is nothing without opportunity." The door has to be slighty open. The sad thing is sometimes they are locked. You have to search for the key to open them.
There comes the question : how hard must we work to get them? While to some it might seem to be an never-ending task, to others its as 1-2-3. Another question: Is it, therefore. fair? In the work place or even in the situation of relationships. We are also stuck with: want vs reality. Tisktisk...
Even John Constantine faces the same problem. Can love really conquer all? Even for us commoners? Do we get a second chance? Do things ever turn around and b the way we want them to be? And finally, do we have the luxury of time?