I dun seem to matter..

I noe this sounds like another of my insecure moments. But its true. I should have gotten used to it by now…But all at one time…are u kidding me?....
Yesh, its mummy’s day. Yesh mummy dotes on my brother. There goes daughter. Maybe the turmoil he’s goin through ( movin hse and exams) means he needs more attention..hmmm
Tell me I’m irritating. My words are nothing. I’m nothing. So it doesn’t matter what I think right. Then dun ask. Dun ask me to do things. Argh…And most importantly dun misunderstand me…

All about love...as mother's day comes ard

Love food - Diet? What diet? This just tastes too good

Love yourself - You laugh, your cry, you smile, you frown, you live...

Baby love - Knowing there's someone out there you love unconditionally-and who loves you unconditionally back.

First love - You'd recognise his smile anywhere- it's the only that lights up inside.

Love work - Some people call you a workaholic. Can you help it if you love what you do?

Puppy love - Not just man's best friend...

The sweetest thing...

Saffy

That is saffy. Tiff Chew's niece. Cute Cute right. You shd see her when she looks at you with her gorgeous eyes and says " I want you. I want you to watch me sleep..."...Sigh...how to say no man. Was in tiff's hse for a photoshoot...for something really excitin..someone had to look after her while the oter two of us were workin. So yeah..owell.....yanghan told me later i was good with kids...omg. U sure?..hahaha
Anyways, working on FOC/rag/thurderrain( yeah..the leiyu team got ourselves a name.haha)/work. Its a good break from school/studio i guess. Although sch start haunts me...sigh...was tokin to jan tt day...decided nt to go for S.A.M. The year one thingy....But will meet up with her later i guess. Been watchin serials at an amazing rate( according to gugu)..hehe owell.nothing to do mah....
Grey's anatomy's Preston aka Dr Burke..( jus heard TLC's new single on mtv...nice..) said to christina aka Sandra Oh " I keep taking the steps.....why dun u take one to...anymore steps i take and i will be walkin away" So....are u takin a step?

While reading FL .ag

One is not born a woman, but becomes one – Beauvoir

“Suddenly, masculinity is not made by men, but is determined by women. Women define it, women chastise it, women defend it. Men can only lay claim to old parts of their masculinity through irony, by falling right in with the joke. And men are finding new roles appearing for themselves- at the margin of the successes of women”

樂天

love n hate

I like to travel but the past few days it has been nuts. I cant complain much la, as my mum said, "you leave everything to the last minute of course like tt la"...argh..FINE...Getting the dates...checkin the prices ( with my mum breathing now my neck complainin abt the price )..the hotel...blahblah..i so can pay someone to do it for me la... My mum has been in a harsh harsh mood..argh...think i'm spending too much time at home..she cant stand it. I'm better off not at home la. As they say distance make the heart grow fonder right...though i'm not sure it works in tis case.
Toking abt distance, the distance between now and sch it work and confusion. Things, a couple of them are happenin simultanously... So u will hear me wine. Slap me if u must...wahaha. Help if u can.

Portfolio. Flu. Kids

...Ah...!!!! Forgot to buy a new portfolio 2day..*darn. My stuff are lying all over the place. My mum will scream soon. But nowadays she is letting loose ( not in "tt" sense..hahaha), but the fact tt i'm moving soon...goin miss duchess..been here for 14 years mind u....*sob
I dunno how it happened...but my nose is running away...In need of rest, water and TLC..hahaha. Its the time when i'm supposed to be taken care of, instead my mum will go " see la, did nt take gd care of yourself..now u risk the whole family getting sick".... Do u think i wanted it?...Gosh
Got reminded 2day tt i wun wanna be a kindergarden teacher. Once in awhile, sounds of a crying child, a few seconds later, someone calling for mummy. That was my cousin's bday party at KAP. I had my bdae there once, but i think i was older. She as usual, being the princess, wore her tiara, happily greeted those who wished her happy birthday with a handshake den quickly grab the present...*gasp..hahaha. But i must admit, its quite cute to see little ones dance to HI-5 songs and not to mention N*SYNC...i'm serious...hahaha. Kids nowadays, i was the present collector lady 2dae and the goodie bag lady too. Seein the toy r us wrappers, the guess kids one, Polo Ralph Lauren ones....AH!!! I also wan...hhaha.

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The ad of "how to vote" is everywhere. Meaning ive been watchin alot of tv too...but tts nt the point.hahaha My cousin kept goin on and on abt PAP. How the lift will stop at every floor because of PAP..blahblah...hahah..funny...argh...nt interested but the big who-ha does make it fun.
Argh...sch ended...Love the freedom but bonded to committments too. If u are free........pls help out. We cant promise money but wat we can promise is more time with friends and more fun...i guess.. :P
ooo.i miss the movies...thinkin of who to sabo to go hav a movie marathon with me...hehe..

While watchin Pretty Women

“A kiss no matter where, when and how represents a common need to connect to another human being.”- Desperate housewives

We can’t live alone. Let’s face it. We need people around us. The start of the holidays make me realize how we can and will miss one another but we definitely still do need our space. Its ok not to meet each other each day. Its ok not to know. But its important to update each other. Communication that is. The problem comes when there is no talking, Some are shy, some just rather not to. In any case: Move. Dare yourself. Talk. That’s the least you can do…

The catalyst

Was talking to a friend just awhile ago, she hasn’t known me for long but she kind of knows me quite well already. We were chatting along and here are some extracts:

Fren says:
everyone is just waiting for cupid to strike. =)
Fren says:
fate and time will tell. He/she doesn't have to rush for it..
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Fren says:
actually opp. attracts only holds true for certain cases.
Fren says:
there's no generalizations when it comes to r/ns.
Fren says:
not only r/ns.. everything in fact.
Fren says:
ppl are generalizing more frequently only because of the media... the narrow minded messages perpetuated my the media.
Fren says:
it's difficult to explain but... just want to tell u tt u can't generalize too much.
…………................................

Fren says:
but i understand. =)
Fren says:
it's too late and i am too old and time is too little for me to break into your circle. hahaha
-Jia :.. says:
but i'm used to keepin things to myself la
-Jia :. says:
i dun believe in burdenin pple
-Jia :.. says:
with my problems
-Jia :.. says:
hehe
Fren. says:
actually, everyone has a way of managing their own lives. if u feel tt u r living the best way now, it's great =)
Fren. says:
there's no need to conform to standards but...
Fren says:
don't treat sharing stuff as burdening people. =)
……………………………………..

Fren says:
it's ok
Fren says:
but relax gal.
Fren says:
u are too...
Fren says:
tight i feel..
Fren says:
the line is tauted..
-Jia :.. says:
hehe
-Jia :... says:
at times la
-Jia :. says:
but i;ve learnt to jus let go la
………………………………………………..

Fren says:
actually...
Fren says:
everyone has 2 sides to em'...
Fren says:
what she cannot imagine doesn't mean it doesn't exist
-Jia :... says:
true true
Fren says:
everyone needs a catalyst.
-Jia :.. says:
some stronger than another
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the time is now....

i knoe its ironic...but i think i hav to learn not to care...argh...anyways...had a horrible stomachache 2day during my tech exam..pain pain pain...but owell.YEAH!!!! Its all over
hehe
Now on the list is FOC, rag, lei yu, work, play, travel, fun....hehehe...
Good girls vs bad girls
Good girls go to heaven but bad girls go everywhere.....wahaha

aiyo.....

-Betula
-adidas by stella mccartney
-the bag i saw ( white )
-kitten heels frm heeren

Learn to care...

girls


Apathy is a problem with alot of people. So hard to get them to care...why why why..tsktsk. They show no signs of concern nor care..why why why....Dun you understand that the basis for human relation is communication...argh...If u are nt interested let it be known....gosh.!
Anyways, i have AR tomorrow. For those who still dunno, its the study of things like floors, roofs..blah blah..things we often take for granted..hehe. Reading and study is getting harder...is it a sign of fatigue or jus the fact tt i've turned 20....goshgosh....no....must grow old gracefully..hehe
Sunday's paper was a sad one...with depressing stories on Joan and Eugene. Eugene a CEO of one of America's biggest accountancy firms did this circle thingy. Where u draw circle within a circle. The outer circle is for your hi-bye frens.....as you process inwards...the closer the more important the people they to you. That will make family and those chosen few to be in the inner most one right...!? You will soon realise you spend alot of them actually with the 2nd or 3rd most inner circle pple. That was smthg Eugene realise and regretted as he was left with a month worth of his life.
So.....when will you learn how to care like life is to be cherish.... :)

SPIRIT............got it?

Spirit

Mr Darcy...

Its amazing what one movie can do to u...I justed watched Pride and Prejudice, yes the jane austen one, and i must say even as we are now living in the 21st century , we still can relate ourselves with her time. If one thinks romance is for the only those who seek nothing much in their lives, they shd watch this show. Elizabeth is a perfect example of hoe as stuborn as u get...u cant run away frm it. Well, of course, the visually delightful Keira is a draw to viewers. I really liked the part where Mr Bennet was unable to let go of his dear Lizzie." I hardly think anyone deserves u, my dear"...he said as tears well up in his eyes. Mr Darcy.....is a classic, with all the snags and metros ard nowadays its hard to imagine anyone can be soo in love with anyone. The words tt come out of his mouth were spoken with such sincerity and grace as he meets Elizabeth. Now i noe why tons of women flock over Mr Darcy..wahaaha
Btw, i was taking a break from bloody BU....wahaha....Now back to it...and continuing to become, "an old maid"- as Elizabeth puts it

OK.....so i'm 20

This must be one of the most boring bdaes...perhaps its because last year i had a party and the agony that this might go on for 4 years. Carol ( my cousin-in law) , whom i was tokin to on msn, told me that time will fly when u are in your twenties...when there are multiple life-changing decisions to make. Recall: she married my cousin in her twenties and gave birth to the cutest thing as well. Pressuring me to get attached?...while, I , on the other hand pressurin her to add to her bundle of joy.....hehe.........
"Life is unfair........how can one choose....wat is the basis of tt.? What happend to the one who loses...doesnt anyone feel for her. We cant just abandon her. Let her go? ....If love were enough.i'll be where ever u are. What u dun noe wun hurt u?...Is it better to be in the dark? But in the dark there maybe fear, but there is also hope. Something the truth might not bring."
- Grey's anatomy